B Lee: Check this out. So I we were just sitting there talking. Yeah, don't act like anything, alright? check it out. Thank thats L E E hes famous No, yo, you ⁓ That's just my wallet. That's my wallet, my recorder. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, that's nothing in there, it's just my wallet. ⁓ You know me being a truck driver, you're not supposed to have a wallet in your back and mess up your back, you only get one back, have your perfect spine, you know what I mean? You got good posture, you know. People don't know about that though. Well you're saying, you know, earlier about Peter. His name is Darnell Peterson or something. Somebody told me about Darnell. I think no, that was you. That was you. The one I the other guy I told you about was the doctor nurse first. Like freakers. Yeah, this is another guy. But when he uses his microphone, he just uses any random object. It can be a Barbie doll. Yeah. It could be a a cone, like an orange cone. Alright. Like he just puts his microphone on anything. If he be talking Alpha cider vinegar and put it on there. It can be a Barbie chair. It can just be dumb stuff. But it gets your attention. People like, y'all keep doing this, it's just dumb. When you won't wake up and see, like you just be talking real. Yeah. But you know yeah, I just feel like we can like growing up as being like people pleasers. Like we just like Well be nice, but be nice, be nice. And then it teaches you like not to have boundaries and then also you just you like that you're wrong for doing that bet you know that ⁓ protect or benefit you. You know, so it's like if you have friends over and it's like, ⁓ you can't play with this pillow it's like, be nice, share it's like but this is my boundary, like this is mine. Like they can play with all those because mine but we just weren't taught that. number one is being kind to yourself. So I just felt like I wanted to do something for one of my friends, this is the friend that I live with. ⁓ And just ⁓ I mean, seen ⁓ for sure, like in but just ⁓ the things that she has and I can see her doing how much I could see on the other side of it. She is trying and just ⁓ You know the good in her. I feel like I just wanted to surprise her and do like a like a disappreciation dinner. Alright. Who's this you're talking about? like a name. Yeah, or who is who's it was it? okay, okay. I c I missed that. I missed that. I zoned out my bed. I to adderall or Damn, I ⁓ be boring. adderall? ⁓ bro, I've been taking a little I've been taking classes for you know, lately and I'm like boom I go I go, you know. ⁓ Yeah, get all messed up, I get a sidetrack. It's like a dog and be squirrel. Did you say it's really good? Yeah, they're alright. They're not too bad. I didn't do it with the pecans though. Yeah. Yeah. So yeah. But anyway, they're alright. That's a th that's that's a thing I learned, so like I got high expectations, you know what I mean? So when I come in a little fast. Remember when I was something? Yeah. So remember when I I taught you about the ⁓ damn what was you just talking about? ⁓ the brain came. What? You should have got the basomic a little bit at the bottom. Touch that touch that bottom. That's cool. Yeah, I'm not a I'm not a fan. I'm not a fan. Try it again, give it a little fan. So But no, I was having like I said, I have high expectations, so you know I cook, you know when I cook, I mean be a little different. So ⁓ Gonna try it. Alright. Remind me of this old girl Jessica used to talk to Taste the taste it taste. Go in? Yeah, I'm Already got the broccoli, so look let me get some of this pecan on here. Mm-hmm. No, you gotta get the juice. That's all right. But I basically when ⁓ first moved in, yeah, she had lost her job. ⁓ then ⁓ took her a while to get back on her feet and that was like really tough. ⁓ ⁓ wanted to do this ⁓ I hit up like some of her family. ⁓ And some friends and everybody was like, ⁓ we'll check our schedule, we'll get back to you. ⁓ we'll let you know. ⁓ well this week, you know, doesn't go. And we were close to having something, but then someone was sick and it kinda fell through. And then I realized like it's never gonna be a perfect time. There's people that wanna go. But if they can't make it, then it's okay. And I'm learning that It's okay for people to be disappointed. Like that's a natural feeling. Let them let them be disappointed 'cause that means they wish they could be there. That's a good thing. But then just still doing what's best and I don't want to pull hold off anymore. So I'm like, I'm doing it. Like I'm there's a lot of people I could feel that are probably upset 'cause it just doesn't work for them. Yeah. But I'm not waiting, so I'm just learning that. It's just like let people let people be disappointed. Let people feel it, you know? That's what I learned too, like over the years, like I used to be like I said, a people pleaser. You know, us growing up with with grandpa and and stuff like that. Like I used to play football because wanted me to play football. And I took a picture of that the the boat going by. ⁓ It's you know, he wanted to do it and I found out wrestling, so that was my thing, right? Did you like it? So what? Football? Wrestling? Nah, I like wrestling though, that was my thing. But not football. But not football. I did it to please you know that all my life I did that, huh? You never enjoyed it? ⁓ Not really. mean I did, but I didn't. Did you enjoy it? ⁓ yeah, I do. I feel like you were like Ohio State but I was wondering ⁓ Ohio State baby. Well I was wondering now, w did you just like cling on to something because of that or No, I like the sports so and I started watching sports later because, you know, when I started my business and then I gave me something to talk to people about something to relate to, talking to, you know what I mean? Everybody watches sports. So I would watch the sports, have everybody over on every weekend and stuff like that. We all watching sports because I would you know then got into the betting and then the sports betting and different stuff like that. So then after that part, I don't know, I just like I just stopped. I just stopped got tired of it. Like you was talking about, you know, people being disappointed. So I constantly have, you know, family come over and then when I needed help You know, whoever, you know, couldn't find you know, my brother, ⁓ find, you know, my mom, you know, nobody was there when I needed the help, right? ⁓ everybody was there when I was, ⁓ know, entertaining, you know what I mean? It was fine, correct? So ⁓ you find out who you really are and who's really in your corner ⁓ you really need the help, you know what mean? ⁓ ⁓ that's why I stopped being a people pleaser and I stopped even ⁓ know, even being single for the so long and being by myself. ⁓ You know, I put my headphones in, I travel all alone, I learn to love myself, be by myself, and I act crazy and I act nuts because I'm so hyped with life. Just like we was walking up trying this pier, you just said you fell asleep and it was it was nice, right? Just outside. Are they Thank you, thank ⁓ you. have paper macros? ⁓ So they so like people what I learned is that's what you dope at a restaurant. Yeah, yeah. We're talking right now. Yeah. But that's what I'm saying, like what's I'll talk about that too, but But it would be dope though. Yeah, just saying yeah, yeah. So I it's that's hard to try to find people to come out to get on the podcast. I've been doing it, I've sent out my cards and stuff like that and everything like that, but it's hard to find people 'cause people get that's like an interview, right? Or a date. Or when you got a big event to go to, you get nervous, right? Feel like you gotta perform. Easy to feel in it. Easy to fill in, you got your drink, I got my drink. I'm just naturally talking 'cause I don't got nobody to talk to, right? So now I just got a motor mount. So as I get excited, my phone rings I talk to somebody, you know what I mean? But that's why I do the podcast. But like you said, it's a small thing and I learned it's always the small things that you know that makes some people happy, you feel me? the too. So like me, like now being a music artist ⁓ and you drawing and stuff like that and ⁓ just going taking the kids out, you know, nature chairs and walks. ⁓ You find beauty in almost anything. Like yesterday with me and the kids went on a on a walk ⁓ and I the phone, right? ⁓ So I have to look it, right? ⁓ was like, Yo, a picture of us, take a picture of us. It's like, alright, come on, we'll take your picture. ⁓ I went just like this. You know what I mean? So we're taking a mental picture, right? So it's like the imagination, you know, and then just taking mental pictures and just chilling, you know what I mean? So and we have fun, you know, for that little thirty, forty five minute walk, you know. So I think like for me like it's crazy because nowadays, like I said, when I just came down here and just got food, ice cream, sat by myself. Right. And then everybody's like, Wait, who are you with? Like, are you okay? And like one of my close friends for son kept asking me like are you okay, you good? And I was like, Yeah, like I enjoy me. You like it? Right. Right. I'm okay with being by myself, but it's such a strange thing and like even if I go away and then like I'm sitting at a restaurant by myself, people will come up to me like, that's really cool, like that you're doing that. I'm like, yeah, like what are you supposed to do, right? Like it's okay to be by yourself. I used to be that same way too, like and that was like my fear cause I don't like being around a lot of people and a lot of crowds and even, you know, when I network and stuff, when I started to have to network, you know what I mean, I would face that, that'd be my fear. Like when I went to the big conventions and stuff, I'd go in there the room, talk, talk, talk, talk, go back outside, breathe, take some air, and I'm going back in there again, you know what I mean? And I'm the business card. But I like when you said it because it's like weird now that we're in the society in the today that we are. We feel like we have to have somebody, even a pet, you know what I mean? You got pets and stuff like that too. So it's I feel like people don't know how to be by themselves, you what I mean? Whether it's with your phone or, you know, a a dog, a person. So it's really cool when you love yourself. And like I say, when I go to the grocery store and stuff, I got my headphones on, I'm singing, I'm dancing. Like, yo, what are you on? I mean I woke up this morning, who else did? I mean I've been breathing, right? So everybody wakes up, you know, I think I think there's over 100,000 people that die every single day, something like that. I don't know the exact ⁓ But I'm one of them ten thousand, let's just say that. ⁓ So the point? You know what I mean? ⁓ Mope all upset for why. ⁓ You know? But like that you said that because now I'm like, yo, what the heck? Like I didn't even know you'd be like chilling by yourself. That's really cool. I like it. Yeah, so ⁓ it me sad because like like I said, I've been around so many people and they'll say stuff like, ⁓ I want to go home by myself, and it's like even when I'm home by myself, like I love it. Like it's just a different vibe like when I'm home by myself. Alright. It's just I like it. So it's just it's really shows like people choose just don't like themselves or they're just not comfortable with themselves. Right. And it's just that silence. So that's solidarity. So that's how it is now 'cause like lately now since I've been working out, taking care of my f my f my face and stuff. Like, I mean I get lonely at night 'cause I'm a man, right? Yeah. So you're a human. I mean, yeah, so yeah. But I kept my my arm I don't bleed any different color. Everybody's human, but like I feel like it's just like a male or a female. this thing it has ar like legs and ⁓ it just patch you. So you just get inside of it and all the legs just patch you. That's great. I don't wanna I don't wanna I'm trying to find it. But then, recently I feel that way, but I feel like there's ways you can get it in a different way. So we my my friend Bunny sits. But it's a great emotional support. And so he's used to being held. But recently like we watch him maybe like once every month or two months. And There was a time where I was about to do a class and I was like super like maybe ⁓ anxious. I was super anxious. And he came for the first time I held him and with bunnies. ⁓ it's a very much like mutual relationship. So if you groom them, they want to groom you back. So if you just that's too much. That's too much. Hear me, hear me. It's not that gross, it's not that gross. I didn't say it was gross, it's just too much. If you just hold them and rub them, they'll give they'll kinda like do a lick. It's like a little like it, but it just feels like a warm kiss. It's just like a wild case. promise you, Branden. I promise you, it is so it is so soothing. But you said you didn't have one. But listen, let me tell you. ⁓ ⁓ the bunny, I thought you were still talking about the octopus joint. Yeah, he said. The plane's just flying. I'm like, ⁓ yeah, come back, come back. So yeah, so I just held him and I pulled him like my heart was beating fast and then his heart beat slowed down my heart beating. Yeah. And I was like holding him right here and when I held him, he was like kissing my like Are you trying to tell me that you're pansexual and you love rabbits now? Is that what you're trying to tell me? And I love like it just shows you that sometimes people think they can only get it from like a romantic like that doesn't have to be the case. But him just hold like he literally just kinda like a better because it doesn't cry You don't gotta change ⁓ It it it's it's ⁓ ⁓ training so and it doesn't stink 'cause he eats fruits and vegetables. That's a parsley, ⁓ blueberries. And and was just like, yo, this is all I needed. Like I just needed something. But it's just like you can get that in so many ways. It doesn't have to be. It could be ⁓ Feeling the warmth of the sun. Like it doesn't have to be Well I could feel something like that. You know what I mean? I get it. But Nah. I definitely like I wanna go out like ever since I've been to Puerto Rico, like I've been dancing to like Latin music, you know, that bunny was in the Super Bowl, like you know what I mean. I shouldn't say Latin but Latino. You know what I mean? Like I see him. Huh? No, I didn't see him. But ⁓ and I dance merengue and stuff. And that's a two different thing 'cause I like dancing, you know, and that's what I say like being by myself. That's what I was getting at. So like when I was dating, like a lot of I feel like I'm carrying a conversation with a lot of these girls. And I'm good. ⁓ I thought she was handing a chance. I'm I like Maybe a little bit. You really don't I'm good. I don't like So the thing is, ⁓ I do want to do that. ⁓ yeah. I'll be carrying a con like I'll be texting or I'll call a girl or whatever. And they just be like I'm like, yo, I can't I can't deal. Like I'm not even It's taking me too much effort. Like I was too much effort. So I'm done. So I'll like you know what? I'm done. I don't wanna talk no more. So like I don't I don't kiss butt. No, no. I'm not completely close off. I keep shooting my shot. I just no, I just shoot my shot, see where it goes. And I'm just like, you know, if it goes somewhere if it do. But like I said, I'm not trying to wipe nothing. I'm not trying to one night it 'cause I love being by myself. I don't want to be tied down. I don't want somebody calling me, be like, ⁓ where you at? ⁓ you can't get up and go on a trip, go here, you know what I mean? Like I've traveling, like fixing on my car. I'm like working on my car at night. I'm up three, four o'clock in the morning working on my car, making some music or doing something on the internet or something, you know what I mean? Like I don't want nobody controlling me truly. I don't like that. I'm too used to being by myself, you know what I mean? No, I said I want to one night it I don't want to wife it. I'm one nighting it, I'm not I'm so with it. Yeah, I don't have time for it. I don't wanna be like for me personally, I feel like once you like truly do have a connection with someone, yeah, I feel like just It's like a ⁓ a disservice to yourself, like putting yourself on like sales. I'm a one night something. Because I know like the way I am, like just to really connect with someone is just not that. Like I I've I feel like I can't even see myself doing that. Yeah. And trust me, like there's been opportunities where I'd be like Then I'm like Because it's like it's not. I mean you how can you even like that's a discerni that kinda shows you to me like where you are in your journey because it's like if you truly value yourself and you're ready for this, you wouldn't even put yourself a male or a female you want to put yourself out there just to do that. So you know like is it really satisfying? Right, right. Or is it just like love? Is it a bluff or just lust? What you do over there? Is it lust? Yeah, how do you feel afterwards like like like does it really So my thing so I think we're just giving it So this week I paid for this seminar to ⁓ like a business seminar and I was in it it's online. So I started learning different stuff, but there's a few things that I noticed even when I watch like other business people you know in the ⁓ business field, a lot of say like a lot of entrepreneurs that are really successful, you know, multi millionaires and stuff. They also have a partner. So like this one lady was her husband was supporting her the entire time, right? While she was still building up her business, going to school, doing whatever she wanted to be. They had two incomes, right? Which makes it nice. But you have to find somebody who matches your same Okay, so you had to find somebody that watches who matches your same goals, you know, another entrepreneur or another business person. That's I'm talking about myself. We're in the same mindset, you know what mean? So That's where I'm at, you know what I mean? But I'm not looking for it. If it happens, it happens. But if it don't yeah, like I gotta schedule a routine. That's what you need. Yeah. Live your life like Exactly. Yeah, exactly. And that's what I'm doing. I'm living my life exactly how it is exactly. could be where you miss that that is actually for you. no I'm grabbing a quickie I don't even care. I'm gonna grab it. Then you could have been at the grocery store grabbing some groceries. I won't be at the grocery store because I'm gonna have them deliver them groceries to the house. Where it's cheaper. So you know I mean I don't want to waste my time shopping when I can be doing something else. You know like working on my car. Yeah, I mean ⁓ I think I'm in a wrong I think I'm in a wrong spot. I that's why I think I think my city or I'm in Harrisburg. No, I think it's just a city. It's Harrisburg. Because every woman I dated in business or talked to in business. ⁓ Nothing good's okay. I mean just look at Harrisburg. Nothing's That's why That's why I need to run. That's why I gotta go into politics, I gotta make it better. You know what I mean? So it's only right. 'Cause nothing's nothing's good. Do you feel like you going into politics will make things better? At least it'll be a start, at least in my city, because alright, so I worked in Lancaster when I was working with the people with special needs. So I did that and it was in Lancaster, it's forty-five minutes away and it's popping. Just like right now, three o'clock, twelve I go out for lunch, I go to for breakfast, it was popping. Like people are walking, everyone's getting out of here, boom, everyone's out. Harrisburg is dead. It's dreary, and that's the capital, right? So even York in the river and then they got meetings. Yeah, it's but it's not I'm not talking about when there's no events, right? When there's no events, right? dead air. Alright. So maybe I don't get out enough in Harrisburg. Maybe that's why I travel everywhere else. And you know, I do network events everywhere else. But you know when you live in a certain place you become like immune to it. You kinda become like I do. I like that you're saying that digitized and you just it's like you don't see the good in it, you know? So that's another thing I noticed like 'cause I was talking to the last person at the the place I was eating at was She was she was I told her about Puerto Rico and I was talking to the people where I hang with the locals and stuff and I go talk to them 'cause I'm not going to the tourist spots. I'm showing in the other spot, right? So when I go there, I know I talk to them, I see I'm eating their food. I'm not eating the tourist crap, I'm eating the food stuff where somebody told I said, I want somebody to make my food who got their moms in the back, sweating drippinginginside the pot, you know what I mean? ⁓ So was all that. ⁓ But long short ⁓ I was on the beach, right? My plane landed at 4 a.m. and I waited until the sun came up. I see the sunrise. There was a guy, I was sitting right there on the rocks before I found the hotel stuff. And there was a guy sitting next to me and he was smoking a pipe and he smoked it, I don't know what it was, and he like laid back and relaxed. And I was like, wow, the sun was rising, it was beautiful. It was the pictures I see on my computer, you know. I look up and when I go to sleep at YouTube, you know, I'm seeing them same pictures, you know? And I'm like, yo. I was getting ready to cry 'cause how beautiful the scene was and this guy is getting high right there just to enjoy whatever he's enjoying. But it's cause he's desensitized because he sees it every single day. You know what I mean? So I understand what you're saying, where I maybe it's 'cause I'm from Harrisburg and I see it there, but you gotta remember I lived in Harrisburg my entire life. You know what I mean? I seen Harrisburg when it was popping and it was live when I was twenty two years old, you know what I mean? I seen it rise and I seen it fall and then where it's at now. You know what I mean? So I seen what it used to be. So maybe 'cause I like the city so much and I live there and I care about it. They're getting their Trader Joe's there now. Like it would never be back. They had Trader Joe's and stuff like that. And that's different areas. Yeah, yeah, yeah. You kinda like But I also they also 'cause it's a different class of people and where you're raised. You know what I mean? Even being in business and sh and stuff now. You You know what's going on in sell and what's not. And since I'm taking these classes and stuff, so time. Like I don't go there, but it's just like like you said, like it's all about perspective. And some people love it, they want to come and experience it. But I see the traffic. I see the security of it all. Like you just don't know what could happen. So I just felt like yeah it was just perspective. But that's everywhere. Yeah, that's everywhere. Right. I repeat and there's some people talk about, you know, ⁓ it's a bad city and stuff like that. I like I told a lady like every time I talk to people from here, they're like, you went to Puerto Rico with and you were wearing around with felt asleep in the Wendy's parking lot, like what? Like see I don't care. I'm happy, go lucky. If it's my time to go, it's not a time to go. know what I mean? So ⁓ also told me, you know, how dirty a one city like Vegas, they say it was dirty, it's not like pee ⁓ want to go see it myself and it wasn't like that. It's like going to see a movie. Right, right. It's like a movie, right? So somebody tells you this movie's good, this movie's good, this movie's good ⁓ then you finally see it, you're like, yo, this movie's crap. Yeah. ⁓ what are they talking about? I feel about Devil Wears Prada. I thought that was the most dumbest movie ever. I wanna see it because I like the lady in it. I like the very first one. I like the first one. Yeah yeah I like the first one. Yeah yeah but I like shows like everyone has a different experience. Everyone sees things different. So but yeah one of my best experiences in Puerto Rico. Really? ⁓ to what part did you ⁓ up to? I was definitely in San Juan, but then we went to try to go to the rainforest and we end up going to the island of Viegas. Yeah. And they have this bio aluminous bay. Right. And now it's different because I think because a lot of the like blue shit and stuff, they don't let you get in the water no more. Yeah. Back then they used to have like these canoes with acrylic the water reacts to energy. Right. So if a fish swim, it's like diamonds, like stars. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I seen it when I was there. You get in there and you move. Yeah. It's literally like stars. Like what some Moana joint when the when their grandma went into there. I gotta watch that part. Isn't it beautiful I don't know? It's so beautiful though, ⁓ I don't remember that part though. Yeah, that's on the very first one. Yeah. Because you ain't paying attention. I just feel like that was the moment and I was just like And like you say, it's crazy because what's so beautiful, pollution, lotion, chemicals are killing it, know? I mean I guess. But but that was like one of my favorite moments. I'm it was like I was probably like sixteen, seventeen, sixteen, but I'll never forget it. Like it stuck with me and I was like That's how I I mean that's why I wanted to take the kids there. That's why I'm upset. We still they still got their plane tickets. But I went there for the clear w I look it's what we see every day, right? Virginia Beach, me surfing, right? Like dirty, look at it. People pay millions to live right here on this dirty water I know. It's crazy. But hey, maybe it looks like a creek. It looks like a creek. Creek. Yeah, it looks like a creek. ⁓ that's all I'm saying. Well we talk about perspective. Maybe they don't, you know, maybe they don't know how I'm gonna live here. This is where you know they like it. ⁓ it's thinking it like that, I've been taking Ubers and stuff and Uber and I talked to a lot of foreigner people. ⁓ a lot of people come here and they say you know, they see movies of America and they they find out that America is just the same the same thing, you know what I mean, as they're back in their country. It's no different, you know? So as I but it's perspective, you know what I mean? Like me, I like like just 'cause I started traveling and well being able to do that it opened up my mind 'cause I only went to, you know, just the East Coast. But I went to Vegas and then drove through the canyons and then went to you know, California and stuff like that. Like you've seen like When you get out, I really and in Texas and stuff you can see there's there's a lot of beautiful places, you know, right here, you feel me? That's the top of my list. I'll go Oregon to I heard they got good weed, but then I got led down. That and the good hiking too. They got a lot of good hiking trails. It's like stuff like that. I would love that. Not yet, not yet, not yet, not yet. But you can bring the check. We're gonna walk for a little bit. You could walk better with a noise perhaps. Let me get the check and I'll be. Can I see you all here? Thank you. It was great. Thank you so much. They were really good. I had like a nice little kick to it. Glad to hear it. I mean espresso much ⁓ espresso tequila. It's good. I need to try, honestly. It's really made with tequila, but normally it's made with vodka. But it's really board that we like to go here to surface, chug with. You guys had the opportunity. It's a wonderful board. So when'd you get a nose ring? So I got it when I was, you know, started doing music. So I could have that look, you know. That's And then I liked it. No. ⁓ did get it actually, yeah. ⁓ I get the l the LA look ⁓ And then I like, you know what? ⁓ Let me do hoop. ⁓ Cause, you know, was that. ⁓ then I started the little ones on the side. And I had the hoops over there. I was like, yeah, I look Persian. Like in the in the three hundred, even though they lost against the three hundred Spartans. ⁓ But ⁓ Then I was like, you know what? hekwithit it. I'm just rock it out. And then some girls just like, my god, you're so hot, da da da And people, you know, they steer me wrong 'cause they think I ⁓ switched. ⁓ now just just trying to get like really, really beautiful, you know ⁓ what mean? Take care of my body. More beautiful than I am. Just ⁓ trying be with the beauties, you Just stupid just stupid beauty. Huh? You don't think you're beautiful without ⁓ No yeah, I definitely don't because my personality steals the show every single time. I can talk about anything and that's why we're doing a podcast, cause. ⁓ Talk with B. Like talk with me, but it's at Talk With B. ⁓ we're gonna talk about anything and and you never even listened to it? I got the intro and everything. I don't even think I have you anymore or anything. You should have listened to it. I think I'm ten episodes in about to start a second one.