speaker-0: a lot of that stuff's a test, man. It's a test to see if the people are together. And we've proven time and time again that we are not. And it saddens me because there's a scripture, I think it's, you know what, it's John 17, 16. And the latter part of that verse says, are no part of this world. So I am just as I am no part of this world. So I tell people, be careful how deep you get because it's a deep rabbit hole of evil out there. And they're looking. But what does it say in the Bible? The devil walks around like a roaring lion ready to devour. That's how it is out there. That's why I try to keep our spiritual cup strong. And how many times have we talked about before we step out that door in the morning, my spiritual cup better be full. I need to have Christ in the most high on my side because when I step out there, take, take, take, it's a gimme, gimme, gimme world.

speaker-1: What's up world? Welcome to another episode of Garage Talks 5417 podcast. I'm your host Desmond Reynolds aka the Peacekeeper. As you know, we always got a great wonderful guest. So today a great guest a return guest. I'm gonna go ahead and get into it real quick my guy Eddie Rojas. What'd do?

speaker-0: Hey, welcome back man, welcome back. Thank you so much. look good. It's I don't feeling good looking good.

speaker-1: It's been about nine months.

speaker-0: Yeah, it's been a minute. Just about.

speaker-1: Well, let me get you to our quick segment. Follow my lead. We're going to go ahead and do fit check. Okay. Let me go ahead and start out world today. I got the Jordan force got the true blues. Y'all call it true blues. Do on some just cool black jeans kicking it. Got on my plaid shirt looking like a Craig from Friday. That's what I'm rocking today. Got it going. Got it going eat what you rock it.

speaker-0: Alright, let's see from the bottom we got some some low cut pumas. All right, we got the the light blue Levi's got to keep it classic with the Levi's. Obviously repping the garage talk shirts, keeping them fit. Got the double chain got my warrior of my warrior acts for the natives. My chain my baby got me. Yep. Got some diamond earrings. Love it. Got the fresh fade fresh. That's Florida's on top. A little bit of hairspray ready to go.

speaker-1: Yes, sir. Yes, ⁓ . We good. gotta shake your hand for that shirt. You a real one for that newly married man. Congratulations. Let's just get straight to it. How's that feel?

speaker-0: Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. So the last time that we're on the show nine months ago was around the same time when we were going to Italy when I proposed. Yes, we got back from the wedding not too long ago, but it's been a few months since Italy. I won that I won the Italy trip at work for having a positive attitude, believe it or not. And that was just that was just back. when I originally got sober, ⁓

speaker-1: You just got back, didn't you?

speaker-0: I thought that everybody who was sober was really nice. You know, they was outgoing and they was caring, you know, all that good stuff. When I finally got sober and started acting how I remember acting as a kid, it kind of threw people off because they're like, man, why is this kid so happy? What is his reason for being happy? And I just said, I'm sober. thought everybody acted like this. So that reflected through my work. And so we all sat down and said, we got a winner for Italy. It's Eddie. And we got two Eddies. We got Eddie Bailey and we got Eddie Rojas. So I'm sitting down and I'm Eddie. Good job, brother. And they say Eddie. And I'm like, man, where's Bailey at? They go, no, you won. Yeah. And I said, nah, I got to stop messing with me. Like, no, you won an international trip to Italy. So for two days, I was like, you guys got to stop playing with me because I already told my fiance that we're going to Italy. I can't take this back. I said, what was the real reason I won? And they say because your positive attitude reflected it every day saying good morning to everybody.

speaker-1: You

speaker-0: noticing and believe it or not, not even for the ladies. I'm sorry, ladies. But this was for my guys. Telling the guys, hey, bro, you got a great haircut today. Man, you just got you trimmed the mustache. So you got a new pair of shoes. I love your shoes. You look good in blue. And the look on these men's faces was almost a excited and a sad mix together because they weren't sure how to take it. So winning that trip, we go to Italy, my baby's first time on the plane. The pilot lets her sit in the cockpit. And you know me, you know me saying hi to everybody said, this is my fiance's first time on a plane, everybody. And so the pilot heard that and he goes, he goes, ma'am, come over here. And they actually opened the cockpit door and let her come in and sit with all the gear and all the buttons. So we go to, ⁓ to, ⁓ Imola and Bologna in, ⁓ Italy. I ended up, proposing on the cobblestone floor right there in Italy. And then,

speaker-1: about some.

speaker-0: Yeah, after that it was all the planning from the nine months. And since then, of course, you have blessed us with your presence with officiating. So thank you so much, brother. That was ⁓ I meant something to me. That was that's family now, bro.

speaker-1: You welcome. We brothers for life. Yeah. Yeah. you, Need a back there chilling with us. Yeah. Need us back there chilling with

speaker-0: Yeah, told her we wouldn't scare her by putting the camera on her.

speaker-1: First, I will say absolute honor that you two selected me to officiate your wedding. Absolute honor. I take that with the highest regards there. So happily just so glad to do that and facilitate that. I just absolute honor. How crazy was it? Because you asked me we solidified that what February March

speaker-0: Yeah. yeah, yeah, right.

speaker-1: Okay, time flew. Your wedding popped up on me. Yeah. I Whoa.

speaker-0: Yeah. Yeah, because we met up a few times to kind of discuss the little details because we like I not to get too personal, but my wife doesn't have her her father. I still have my father, but he just he's just not here right now. I love my father. You know, there's no animosity just you know, we in time kind of just grew and we're trying to get the relationship back. But us not having our father's kind of made it a little difficult for us.

speaker-1: Charlie.

speaker-0: Um, not only financially, but emotionally because as, as a man who's coming back from a side that not too many people have came from or seen or don't ever want to go to, I have to learn how to emotionally regulate myself because when I get in high-stakes situations, whether it's a wedding or it's just normal confrontations, sometimes I don't always know how to act. And that kind of reflected on my now wife because we're a team. There's no more just Eddie, no more Justin Ead, it's a we, it's a team. that's what I try to understand as a man kind of growing up with not too many role models that it was never, besides the recovery, was never about me. It was about we. And I've noticed that our bond, the laughing, the giggling, the going out, the spiritual connection. It's something that I found. And that's that's something that I roll around in my in my pocket every day, man, just just looking at every couple. ⁓ look, that's be reminding myself how beautiful life is reminders, even when it's not.

speaker-1: reminders. Yeah, sure. I have to applaud you. I noticed that when I showed up on the scene of your wedding, they got a little chaotic there. I noticed they got a little chaotic. moms love mom. She was running around had a couple panics. We had a little thing with the with the with the jewelry. Yeah. Yes. You remember that?

speaker-0: I don't know if everybody knew about that or knows about that, yeah, there was a small panic about did everybody have the

speaker-1: things in place where they in place. Yes, just like a movie. Yeah. Yes. Yes. So we all had our we had some things. I'm an observer. I know I know I'm blessed with the ability to know when to step in and when I should this should that I'm observing and really I was observing you and I applaud you because you had some tests your mom coming up to you the panic this and that and I was watching you work. I saw you work and I said to myself let me watch him. And boy, you pass with flying colors, flying. I was, it was beautiful to watch. Cause I could tell you were working. wasn't that it wasn't normal natural. Yeah. It was okay. That's all right. We're gonna figure this out. Hey moms, we're going to find it. We can use the rubber rings right now if we need to. Yes. We can do. See, I'm watching. Yeah. I'm observing. Cause you two are my priority. Yes. So I said, okay, let me see how this goes. And beautiful flying color.

speaker-0: College. Thank you, And there was only one other mishap that I ran into with somebody from the wedding. And we catered, you know, 90 % of it, my cousins was, one's a baker, one's a photographer. Shout out to Levi de la Cruz, you know, shout out to Brittany high Gara for getting down on that day. They really, really came through for us.

speaker-1: Levi, salute my Thank you. Thank you. salute my guy.

speaker-0: But there was a comment from somebody about the food and it was a real comment maybe a little sarcastic but

speaker-1: Family? Yes! Family, okay.

speaker-0: And, my wife being my number one priority of that night, I wasn't going to let anybody silly left field comments because if 99 people love the food and one person does not, that is okay. That's a, that's an A plus for me. Still. We, we still pass the flying colors. Maybe, maybe we had to shed a little bit of dead skin at the end of the night type stuff, but we still came out nice and smooth. So, you know, it was, it was all in my perception. And there was some people who got really upset that when I walked back, I can hear them talking. And I go, you guys, it's okay. This is a beautiful night. Look, we got married tonight. This is a celebration. This is a continue. We are still to this day celebrating it. It's not over. And I'm riding that high. And that's a high that I can publicly say that I like riding is my marriage high because that's the best, safest, most positive high that I've ever even encountered before. ⁓ yeah.

speaker-1: Alright is the best drug. Love. I don't care. Love is the best drug. And I'd say this part for better or for worse. The love of this, the love of this person, love of this sub for better or worse. Best drug.

speaker-0: goes deep. It goes deep for me because the marriage is not that it's an application, but there is a lot of boxes that you have to check for a man or a woman to say, Hey, I feel safe with this person. I know you can take care of me no matter what. ⁓ In in 30 years and 50 years from now. Yeah, we look you know, we look great. Now we got we got the these ain't 20s and 18s but they look good though. ⁓ It looks good now and I get it and don't get me wrong, maybe at 50, it'll still look good. But there's going to come a time where the wrinkles hit, the sagging starts, the eyesight goes, the hearing goes, the forgetting comes. The sickness is here. The loved ones are. Where, you know, can you ask yourself, where are they going to be? Where are they going to be then? And I, I get.

speaker-1: Safe space, do your thing.

speaker-0: I see a lot of advantage being taken from people who are just trying to do the right thing. And it's so real. It's so real. And I wish that people would understand that it is real. It is here. And it's not about separation or segregation. This is the togetherness time, And again, not to get too political, but this is a time of the Christ for me.

speaker-1: Hmm.

speaker-0: This is the time to get right or get lost. And that's okay because not everybody wants to do the right thing. And that's fine. I just don't have any room for you on my side. And that's okay. I can shake the hand, give the hug, and bless up. But at the end of the day, if we're not working towards positivity and helping people, or at least helping me learn why you're doing this, we can't connect on a deeper level.

speaker-1: And I love that about you. really do. That's what we push over here. Positivity and love and education. That's what we push over here. But see, we not toxic positive either. We not toxic. We can go to the dark and light it up. Yes. You know what I mean? We can light up the darkness. I'm not afraid of the dark. I mean, when it's late at night, I turn my TV on. But I ain't. But what I'm getting at, man, is I see a lot of toxic positivity online. All my days. Perfect. I'm winning this. I'm winning that. No, I don't want that. I want to, I want to know what you go through and how you get through. And that's what I love about you. And that's why I wanted to circle back with you, especially after your wedding. Yes. Cause we, we go through so much. How, how do you do this? How can you help me get through this and observing you? You didn't even have to say it. Just, just, just, just listening to you talk to others, watching you move on your most important day of your life. That was it. Because come on in a wedding world. I don't know who been to a wedding or not. That energy is just amazing. It's like a comic bomb. Yeah, there. And it's like, what are you going to do with it? And I picture it's like a ball for me. It's like a ball of energy. So when I'm walking up to red bone by Gambino, I say, shoot all eyes on me right now. And then I see you coming up looking handsome. Your wife looking beautiful. It's like let's roll.

speaker-0: Yeah

speaker-1: man. That's rock. What's the mission? And for me that day, everything felt all right. Everything felt good. Because you're right, there is a lot of good people being taken advantage of. is a lot of good people who stand on business. And it's unfortunate. It's it took me a lot of learning lessons. And a lot of ladies are just as slimy as guys nowadays. And it breaks my heart. So I learned to put boundaries up. But seeing you two be married. and be an item together gives me hope. gives me like, okay, there's still that out there. Yeah, you can do that because this is beautiful.

speaker-0: one thing that I will say for people who really want to get married or really make that commitment. Make sure the person that you're getting with is also your best friend. I don't mean like, well, quick, quick shout out to my homie, I are Ben Yashakar from Milwaukee. He's one of my Hebrew Israelite homies. Shout out to the Milwaukee homies. I told him make sure at the end of the day, and I don't mean like a best friend like Noel or my homie Bobby. But make sure that you can joke around with your partner the same way you did when you was eight years old with your best friend at school. If you can do that, I promise you anything else is just going to come with with time. Because when it gets when it gets a little too for me, at least just for us, everybody's different because I'm a very wacky attitude. So I need somebody with a more wacky attitude to kind of help me. But I need to be able to joke and know that I can do goofy stuff. And you know, yell from the other side of Walmart, you know, and just do goofy stuff like my wife will run down Walmart saying you love me though you love me though in front of people and or she'll do this thing which I love and when I say love I mean love she'll do this thing where I go hey baby let me fix your hair and she'll go ⁓ and I'm like I'm like babe stop and so people are looking and I'm like she's fine she's fine now I look like the crazy guy but the point being

speaker-1: She started doing the little spazzing.

speaker-0: I'm able to joke with her like that, you know? And so when you do have those spats, you remember all the little fun times you had and you know how to communicate with each other. And that's something that's key with me.

speaker-1: So that brings me how important is it to have a foundation in your relationship or your marriage?

speaker-0: So we were together six years before we got married. Okay. We really need and that's and again, this is just us. These are just experiences. You know, know my I know people that have been together 12 years before they got married. I know people who got married in the first month, you know, so but the foundation of finding out not only who I was, but who she was, you know, the history, the past, you know, just a little bit of background. I need to know. what I'm getting myself into. She needs to understand who my family is because sometimes this is just a part of the pose. You come to meet my family and you got a bunch of Southern Cali Mexicans having 58 conversation with 112 personalities. Sometimes people get scared or intimidated and it could be shocking. So we need to, I just needed to make sure we needed to make sure that we were compatible, not with just the love, the funny, the love, but with the families. Our families need to get along. And they did it. They got along great. Yeah. So we got, you know, our Mexican and our Hawaiian families combining and you know, the family just doubled in size, you know, and

speaker-1: They got along. So wifey was battle tested. Anita was real battle tested. You looked and said, okay, she can handle this. She can handle all of me, my family, my spirit, my heart.

speaker-0: my I was only 50 % of what my spirit was at the time. And I'm not going to say I'm 100 % of my spirit. But the way that my wife showed me that, unkeening love, and that continual sheet, I never saw hope like that before. And it was weird. And I tried running multiple times. ⁓ did you? Yes, yes. I said if I said if I self sabotage enough. I don't have to know and I don't have to see what love really is because I don't want to tell her who I was.

speaker-1: Is that because you didn't feel like you deserved it?

speaker-0: Yeah, it's, you know, I know, know God, you know, this is a real, real thing. I don't tell too many people, but I know God will forgive me. It's just, it's, you know, it's not everything I can forgive myself for. And I know in time I will. It's just at the moment, even current right now, I just, you know, I, there's some things that I have a hard time coming to terms with. And that rides out on myself, sabotage error. Because if I, if I do that, then you guys will leave and nobody will have to deal with me. So don't worry guys, I'm out. You guys just continue your life. know, you're doing great Desmond, don't let me pull you down. And so I'm, so I would do something to, I will start a fight with you or I would, man, your show sucks, man. I would say something of caliber where you'd be like, ⁓ no, no, you need to go. And I would do that on purpose. I'm not full aware what I was doing.

speaker-1: Wow. Never thought I've never thought of that. I'm not saying just with you, but that I never thought that's a tactic somebody could use. Yeah.

speaker-0: Yes, self sabotage is a real, you know, that's that's what we learned in a and that's where I started with loving other people because in a they taught me and shout out to Jose, you know, the sponsor. ⁓ But in a they told you the only way for an alcoholic to stay sober is to help another alcoholic. The only way to get better and cure yourself is to give it to somebody else and help them with their problem.

speaker-1: So if you're helping someone with their problems, it's showing you what not to do or what what did you take from that? personally

speaker-0: It gave me a love and an empathy that I never thought I never knew that many people was going through the same thing I was going through. Sheesh that part. It looks so good from the outside Des. So good. They came in Stacy Adams in the Zoot Suit Pachuco hat. But man their life was in shambles and I had no idea behind closed doors. What? To him and Stacy Adams? Till we really talked and said, bro what's really going on? I can see the sadness in your eyes and don't lie to me. Don't lie to me brother. And that's where the truth comes out. We talk. We talk ruin. You know, you figure out people's, it's not all what it's cracked up to be. It's not the filter. It's not the fake booty. It's not the extended, all it, it's the real one-on-one love that you find from people just like this. This is how I connect the best with people.

speaker-1: This is it right here. So it is crazy to me kind of circling back to date and marriage love. I've hung out with ladies and now that I love myself even more and know myself better. Dude, it's crazy that I really finally God allowed me to buy into my positivity. Let me really buy into everything I'm doing. Yeah, I found myself. Found myself being patient. I'm gonna say that. not lustful, cutting that back and being patient. So I hung out with, I would hang out with a girl. We kick it. And literally she was like, you're not trying to sleep with me. Kid you not first, second hangout. And I said, huh? She's like, you're not trying to sleep with me. I said, no, I said, barely know you. Ooh, that part. What's your soul like? What's your family like? What you do? Cause people forget that stuff. that adds to the fire. Yeah. And I, I'm not perfect, have a past like all of us. But I learned to just slow down, just slow down. God was like, I just heard they slow down and I meditate now to slow down so you can watch everything. How's traffic going? Right. So you can maneuver. And bruh, it blew my mind. Like, wait, what are you talking about? know, most guys just hang out and then we just whatever. Yeah, maybe not.

speaker-0: Classic 101.

speaker-1: And I said, Nah, man, I said, I can't just stick and move like that. Like, that's just, I said, I'm cool. I love myself too much. Yeah, no offense to you. it's crazy. But then you start learning stuff, whether it's for better or worse. Oh, I do the XYZ. I go through this, this and this. I get a chance to be like, ah, I'm good, mom. Yeah, I have to, we're gonna have to back up. Yeah. So it's crazy, man. It's crazy what you find.

speaker-0: Well, I mean, just like you said, boundaries with friends, family, maybe new lady friends. Even in my marriage, there are still boundaries that are set. are still, there is no unexpected expectations in the marriage for us. It is, there's no yelling in the house. We've gone through our spats many years.

speaker-1: always you ever go outside the house and be like, can't do this. ⁓ okay.

speaker-0: I scream in my pillow. There we go in my pillow. I was on my way to work one day and I screamed in my car. And there was a truck driver that was driving next to me and and I heard a song I started bawling because we you know, this morning time we kind of bickering you know, so I went to work upset. And I heard a song I don't know if it was like shot a or somebody but it was really close to my dream type stuff. And I just started bawling and I grabbed the steering wheel. And I just I let out the biggest rip just and I just let it go and and I and I'm okay and I look over in this poor truck drivers like driving and he's looking at me and he's like, are you okay? And so I start balling even harder. But he was like, hey, like you okay, man? I'm like, no, no, I'm fine. But just that was good. That was kind of nice to see, know, empathy from people, you know, it's, I'm not a fan of everybody, but I am cordial with everybody. So I don't have to, you know, respect the views and your likes so much. But I will as a person and as a man, I respect you.

speaker-1: Yes you are.

speaker-0: Until you show me different.

speaker-1: Yeah. Do you, do you think, who do you think hurts more from this fast paced world and dating and stuff, men or women?

speaker-0: Can you elaborate just a little bit more?

speaker-1: Yeah. So like when it comes to dating and just how everything's online, we got social media and stuff. It's so fast now that you can talk to anybody at any time. Yeah. Do you think in in dating wise or anything, who do you think hurts more guys or girls? Or do you think it's both?

speaker-0: I would say it's both. definitely think that women have the upper hand on men when it comes to being approachable. ⁓ As for that aspect, but I think in the dating world, I have a few cousins that I won't say names that they are some sly slick criminals, man. They will talk you out of your chain and they will talk somebody out of their Lamborghini just because of their mouthpiece. And for that reason, I feel bad for the women. ⁓ Cold. Cold. pieces. Cold pieces. I love their family but you know we got a little bit of separation right there. I love you. I love you big dog. But so for that aspect just depends Rico but for approachable this. But when it comes to heartbreak it's equal for sure because somebody can change your mind on the drop of a dime and you never know what hits you. You know there's marriages like that some people just leave on the drop of a dime and you don't ever know what hit you so.

speaker-1: just that's crazy. You say that there was a young lady I just watched the video seven years in. She has the she admitted I have a perfect man. I love them. Of course you question every video nowadays. This was she said I love him. He's a great guy. Boom, boom. I just don't think he's the one for me. Just put it out there. Seven years in didn't say anything's wrong. She just doesn't think they're meant to be.

speaker-0: ⁓ their spirits not matching bro. Yeah their spirits not matching they have different goals.

speaker-1: their spirits.

speaker-0: Because because I don't buy I just don't buy. ⁓ I don't like the way they look. I don't like the way they talk that those things are just that's just a that's an appearance of the mind. We only know what we see. You know, since since children you, you know, get get a little bit serious real quick. You put your kids together. They don't know good and bad. They don't know who's on the good side who's on the bad side until we grow up and we see them we make our own decisions. So for that aspect, I mean, it's It could be equal, you know, it could be equal.

speaker-1: It's it's crazy yet again, this fast paced world. It's so easy. There's always going to be something. Technically, there's J Cole said it best. There's always going to be something more than yours. As far as someone can always have more money more success. That's and it's it's like you'll never be happy until you just love who you have until you know what you got. And it's so true, man.

speaker-0: There's a this like this saw grew guy listened to on on, you know, the Facebook reels is easy. He's a cool guru guy talks about peace. And he said, nobody can invade you here. He goes, so worried about what's happening around again, the fast pace ever since 2000 was it was 2001. was by the way in 2001 I was 11. So just saying in 2001 when the phones and technology started coming out, that's when the whole talking on the front porch stop. and playing football and remember playing catch in the street, playing flag football with your friends. All that stuff. So that type of action with the community and that type of stuff stopped. So I met Anita on ⁓ a Facebook, not Myspace, Facebook. Yeah, so we met, like it was so it's online. So we met online too. So we didn't get to meet face to face. So we met in the digital era, but we had to go through those. box checking in those trials and errors because we met through the media. So we had to really get on up down to earth level and see who we

speaker-1: really are. And see, that's a great point you just said there. Somebody was talking about dating apps to me and they said, it's almost not, and this is for dating apps in specific. Okay. And maybe you can relate it to regular social media, but they said it's not natural to the flow of the universe. You see somebody online and match with them on a dating app. Yeah. Who's to say you were supposed to do that if that dating app didn't exist. Right. And that's crazy to think about. What if you ran into her or him just out and about at a bookstore at church at dinner or something and that's how the old school right? Yes. Pen and paper. Yes. Hey, can I get your number? Can I get your number? Yes. You later. Boom, boom, boom. You you now it's just on the phone. Swipe, swipe, swipe and it's so just unnatural almost. So that's cool that you two took your step to say you we realized we met online, but we

speaker-0: emotionless.

speaker-1: really got to hammer in and see what our beliefs are, what our focus is, what our goal is. That's cool. You got to. If you want to someone online, you got to.

speaker-0: Yeah, because in the beginning, I was when we first first started talking, I was talking to somebody else. And I told her at the time, I said, we can't move forward with this because I'm talking to somebody. Desmond, I have never ever done that. Wow. Like that. Wow. In my state of mind back then, I was not in any state of mind to be telling truths. So what? So that was my first like, I was sitting down one day and I was like, huh, weird. My buddy's like, well, I go, I told this other girl that I was talking to somebody. And he's like, so what? I'm like, I've never done that. And they never I've I've never cared too much to tell people the truth about nothing. But I and I still to this day, I don't know what it was, if it was the name, if it was the picture, if it was a smile or what it was. But I was I need I go, I I honestly think, bro, because I was at a place of, you know, maybe not so good business. And I saw.

speaker-1: Really never done

speaker-0: the innocence in this woman and just something in my spirit. just I couldn't go through with double crossing that, know, and so and that's how it started. then weeks later, we're talking again and I go, hey, you know, I just want to let you know, I'm not not talking to nobody. So, you know, I didn't know if you wanted to maybe talk a little bit or so we should start talking and you know, we got you. So I figured, hey, you know, maybe I don't know if she was seeing somebody else or, know, but I was like, hey, you know, I'm going to

speaker-1: You're not talking to nobody like other girls. Yeah.

speaker-0: I'm in a circle, but maybe I missed a really good opportunity and I'm glad I did because it was the best opportunity of my life. And I am where I need to be right now.

speaker-1: So giving up regardless of even just for the best for yourself, but for the love you have, the happiness you have, giving up all the substances, giving up everything. You take this love you have now over that any day. Yeah, for sure. A lot of people think they can do both. That's why I

speaker-0: I will tell you what I gave it an honest shot. Did you? I gave it an honest shot for many years. both. But my ⁓ my state of mind was not love. You know, it was it was more of a lustful nature towards my partner. You know, the connection, the emotion was not connected with the spirit.

speaker-1: Do substances and having the love. And E, this is for real for real. You're just dead from the

speaker-0: I didn't even know I was gonna talk about this. Like this is just coming from my spirit, my heart right now. You know, yeah. And once, it's funny because I was, it's funny because I took a picture of like two little notes. like, all right, I'm gonna write. And she's like trying to like help me with videos. I'm like, and now I'm like, not even, I'm just talking.

speaker-1: That's why I love it. That's how this goes. mean, I'll look at this.

speaker-0: I get like that. yeah, for, for over three years, because of six, three, yes, on the fourth year, started trying. Yeah, so over three years, I was trying to do my thing and do that at the same time. And let me tell you what a major, major disaster that was, you know, and if and I know people who are maintenance drinkers. But at the end of the day, that's only gonna last so long with age. And I know that my, you know, have family members who have been sick. have me and my personal family who have been sick, like with the acute pancreatitis with the stomach, you know, it's my family's been sick through it too. We've been through the battles, but it's what people don't understand. It's an emotional connection that you have to that substance. ⁓ And you don't, it's like when we met up with the doctor slash therapist, he told Anita, says, Anita, Eddie has another wife. And I just about lost my you know what, because I said, boy, if you get me in trouble for this, go, I'm going to have to talk to your supervisor. That's the PG version. so I want the R version. I got court in January. can't do that. And so Anita's like, looks, I look and I'm like, what do you mean? He goes, the emotional attachment that a person has to a substance is something not talked about because it's personal. It's something that people don't want to believe. But I

speaker-1: You

speaker-0: understand the hard way. When I didn't have that substance, I was an emotional wreck. I was radical with my decisions. I was irritable. I didn't want to watch silly videos. I wanted to be left alone. I just wanted to sleep. And I was sober. But that's how much I missed it. And that's the part that I think people are embarrassed to admit, especially in relationship. Hey, sweetie, I'm dealing with something right now. And because I know you love me and we've made our vows. I know that you're going to help me and I'm truly sorry from the bottom of my heart, but I need your help, babe. And that is where my growth really skyrocketed. That's when I knew that I can come to her with anything. Good, bad, ugly, babe. I'm so sorry. What a foolish foolish. And she was okay. Let's talk about it. Tell me, tell me what's going on. What do think we should do about this then?

speaker-1: That's a foundation.

speaker-0: What if I was you? What would you do? You know, and so those kind of perspectives, man, really blow your mind because what would you do in that situation of you as me? Or what if I did that to you? What would you do? And what would a guy say? What would I leave? I leave. Screw don't I don't don't this is not about me. But you know, so it's not one way. It's a two way street because people say it's 50 50 in a relationship and I highly disagree. Some days it's 80 20 some days it's 95 5. Some days it's 50 50 some days it's 100 100. So I don't the whole notion of a relationship 50. Yeah, maybe if you guys want to do bills that way. And or 100 100 with the bills but to expect your partner to carry 50 % at all times is I think a little unrealistic. So some days we rock 7030 and we're okay. I just want to be okay some days this. I don't want to be great. Don't get me wrong. I have my great days. I have my 100 dip 100 burpee days.

speaker-1: or a hundred a hun- Yes

speaker-0: But there's some days where I wake up and I just want to be OK. I want to just smile at people and say, man, it's so good to see you. Good morning. Let's have a couple. Let's have a cappuccino. And you make peace with the spirit. You make peace with your friends. People see that actions are watched. People see people's actions because they mimic. We're a world of mimicers, you know, like.

speaker-1: You follow people

speaker-0: Yes. Yeah, we hang up pictures of Jordan and LeBron in the room. We follow trends. We follow. So why not set that cool trend? You know, it's like we should be coming together with all this, especially with the things that's going on. I feel like a lot of that stuff's a test, man. It's a test to see if the people are together. And we've proven time and time again that we are not. And it saddens me because there's a scripture, I think, you know, it is John 17, 16. And the latter part of that verse says, they are no part of this world. So I am just as I am no part of this world. So I tell people, be careful how deep you get, because it's a deep rabbit hole of evil out there. And they're looking. What does it say in the Bible? the devil walks around like a roaring lion ready to devour. That's how it is out there. That's why I try to keep our spiritual cup strong. And how many times have we talked about before we step out that door in the morning, my spiritual cup better be full. I need to have Christ in the most high on my side because when I step out there, take, take, take, it's a gimme, gimme, gimme world. And I only have so much to give this sometimes before I snap myself in and I can't do that to my wife. I can't do that to my mom or my family. So I got to make sure my things in check.

speaker-1: Yeah, that's No, that's deep. ⁓

speaker-0: deep. Yeah, right. Yeah. Thank you, man. I begin like that my first sometimes, like I pray sometimes and I just I start going I start crying and my wife has to like squeeze my hand because it's like it's it's mean something to me.

speaker-1: No, it does. I'm grateful to have someone like you in my life. I got a whole family out there, go to church, do their thing. And you know, they're gonna take this how they want. Nobody reach out as much to me as you do.

speaker-0: No!

speaker-1: And the the consistency, the way you don't it don't even seem like you try you just do the the the genuineness, the organicness that you give to me. And just the love. It's I'm so honored to have you in my life in this real talk. Thank you. There's days you've hit me where I've deflected you. Yeah, I'm good. But really, I'm like, dang, he really came in clutch. Yeah, sure. You're like, your message and me at random times of the day.

speaker-0: Like five in the morning.

speaker-1: But that means so much to me. It means so much to have a friend like you do that I have good people in my life. Don't get me wrong my fellas my team my tribe Don't take it wrong But to have how you do and it don't seem like you're trying too hard because this world has so many try-hards It just blows my mind. Yeah, but the way you just on me and it's just no embarrassment from you No, no pride from you just straight a brother. I'm here for you. I love you. I hope you're blessed today I saw that video that video look great that why'd you put that post? I noticed that one. You know how much that means to me? Yeah, I watch I observe and you do you come through you come through and that means a lot seriously man. That means a lot and I thank you man for real. No no pride in you either just straight love.

speaker-0: That's all I like. That's all I like sending the scripture the day in the morning because I have my daily scripture I read I pray meditate in the morning. You know, I, love getting I love learning getting all the information I study with my Jehovah witnesses. I learned from my Hebrew Israelite homies. I got my cousins a Buddhist, you know, I my agnostics and a, you know, so we have everybody but yeah, so to come together and take a little bit piece by piece. It's, it's easier to understand and communicate with the people I love. Because it's fine what you you what we're doing. That's fine. But just help me understand what you're doing so I can have a better understanding for our friendship.

speaker-1: This is, add substance to it. Add substance. Well, that's what I mean. You want them to add.

speaker-0: Okay, so yeah, so exactly. Yes. Yeah, I want him to add substance to it I can help grow with them. Even though because there are conversations that I have with my close friends that we don't always agree on. But I am not. I don't have the animosity. I don't have because you got to understand there's we are in a very good spot. Like I know I understand like we got the rage. We got the the you know, Charlie Kirk, you know, rest in peace. It's but we have to understand at the end of the day. A lot of things with the distractions that go on, whether it's Taylor Swift or anything else is going on, we have to keep this very tight between each other because if we don't have each other, then they win. And I'm not trying to get all political. I'm just saying if the movie Ants, think was Bugs Live, Bugs Live or Ants? ⁓ yeah, Bugs Live, where the grasshoppers think that they took over raw power and the ants said, you know, if we all stuck together, we don't need them. We can take them over. If we were to stick together as a people, we would rise so much, there's so much of that diversity, that segregation because of the social media, because of the little comments, because of the negativity, because of the politics, because of the left side, right, whatever it is, everything's put in place to put us.

speaker-1: apart. And now we're taking live.

speaker-0: And now we're taking lives. And now there's a father gone with two kids and a wife. You know, you have that poor Ukrainian woman in I think it was was ⁓ it? North Carolina. It was like it was like Charlotte, North Carolina. ⁓ yeah, she was. She was there for. She was there for about six or seven years as a refugee. And the man behind her.

speaker-1: Did you ⁓

speaker-0: had a long criminal history, but he also dealt with mental illness, And that's something that as men, we do not take seriously enough.

speaker-1: We don't. remember my cousin, Stefan. Yeah, I love you. He went through it. You remember a little bit of that? Y'all after y'all senior year, I know you were going through some things. He got he got.

speaker-0: Yay! quick. He's the reason why I started push ups. Go ahead. He I tell you what boy he came in. I say boy I want to start and then he's the reason I swear why I started doing push ups. But I remember because I had my own things because I I got popped a senior year at Sheldon. So that's right. was out already. So

speaker-1: We got a swole. Steph went through it. ⁓ He was dabbling in some stuff. Yeah, got in some trouble. Okay. And then I do recall I forget the exact timeline, but he broke his nose playing basketball and accumulation all that he mad mentally went through it. It just went through it and it pains my heart because that's my cousin and it pains my heart because I could have been there more. I say that his family I could have my cousin could have everybody. But I knew he would message me crazy messages where some of them threatening But I knew I I knew I said that ain't him. So I would pray. Yeah, this message is crazy any Normal person would be like, my god. This is terrible. Oh gosh He a big boy. I mean a couple times I looked out the window boy. You better not pull up out here. Yeah, I Just kept replying pray man. Breathe with me pray. I'm 22 at the time

speaker-0: Yeah, yeah

speaker-1: So what's he 25?

speaker-0: Oh yeah, 25, yeah. Something like that.

speaker-1: Yeah. Just wild messages. Hearing spirits, he said, how wild because he was dabbling. They you know, smoking the weed some start hearing things, seeing things. My uncle, Quinn and my aunt Natalie shout out to them being great parents that they are. being they love they love their son. Yeah. What can we do? And I still to this day don't know what they've done. Steph's real to himself now. He don't talk much. I ain't seen Steph in months. Yeah. Yet again, partially my fault too. I'm a grown man. I can pull up.

speaker-0: ⁓ yeah.

speaker-1: but it's that mental health. It's why. And that when I heard that dude, because his sister went to talk to him. Yeah, the guy that

speaker-0: stab the training lady.

speaker-1: And he said he's hearing voices and I'm not making excuses. I'm not saying all this. Nope. Said he's hearing voices. He said she was an informant, this and that just wild stuff.

speaker-0: I understand when I was incarcerated one time and I was coming down on my things I mean alcohol alone will do that to you bro. Just alcohol alone, don't even need to dope. And yes, yes people don't understand that when I was incarcerated I was seeing my mom and my sister being taken advantage of through the window I was seeing

speaker-1: and people sleep on that.

speaker-0: things in the life of split tongues and the devil was coming to get me and every music artist I listened to if I listened to them, they're evil. They got in my brain. was this they had to take me to like the hospital slash psych ward because I was I thought I was and then they gave me a shot and I thought I was an angel in heaven you and I and I flew over with God and he showed me what land I was going to have when the great tribulation comes and he told me that I was going to be a teacher in this part of the land that teach to resurrect it. It does it was a whole. I was just

speaker-1: The Hitch. story where you just you ⁓

speaker-0: I was out there. I was just tripping.

speaker-1: Did you, did you really believe what you were seeing or were you? Okay. You weren't like, it was.

speaker-0: 100 % It was like this. It was 100%. I was running for my life. I fractured both my heels on the door trying to get out the door. They had to take me to the hospital. It was I was shackled to the bed. I woke up with the catheter. ⁓ It was and then I continue to do that for like 10 more years. Yes, just it's it's it's it's a disease brother that people don't don't

speaker-1: Did you?

speaker-0: want to admit because I love I love my favorite is I'll only drink on the weekends. I'm just gonna have one tonight. I'm only drinking for a week. I can have my favorite I can handle it. I got this. I don't need any help. I don't need to tell my wife. I don't need to tell my friends because I don't want them to worry. I just drink in silence. I've tried that many times bro. Why

speaker-1: Why do we do that? Why do we think we got it? Why do we think the weekend? What's your opinion on that?

speaker-0: To me, it's just a pride thing, you know? It's like the first time my wife ever told me no. I lost my mind. I said, man, nobody tells me no. Nobody tells me no. ⁓ My women say, you know, because my ex, my women tell when I say something, it goes. And she goes, no. No, and I don't know what it was, but that little bit of authority really helped me go a long way, brother. So, ⁓ but yeah, I wish we can aware mental health more, but it's just a statute that the guys and women who think that they got it all by themselves is normally the ones that you don't see for. If I don't hear from somebody for like a week straight, I get worried, especially if it's like this or that I'm like my mom. If I don't reply to my mom, ⁓ Big mama's boy. If I don't reply to my mom in like a four hour period, she will show up at my house. Boy, you're right. Boy, you're right. Yeah, mom, I'm sleeping. She's like, okay, I'm gonna go home now. But that's because we know the dangers of that. So it's nothing to play with.

speaker-1: Absolutely. ⁓ Absolutely. I, I gotta say that's so true. Last Saturday, I had a bad day. It just hit me. I didn't start it right. I started it good with a prayer. But after that, I just didn't get out. I didn't do much. dude, that day crashed on me. And I didn't talk to nobody. I didn't I don't even think you text me. So it's like, damn, I have no communication. have no communication. Yeah. And dude, it I was so disappointed because I know hard days are coming. Tough times come. But they're supposed to make us stronger. We're supposed to be get through them some way somehow. I knew I'm supposed to have counters. Yeah, dude. By the day that day ran me through is probably six o'clock. Seven. Yeah, I dragged myself to the gym by myself with my headphones. One thing about me y'all I don't wear headphones in the gym. If I'm wearing headphones. Now you know why it's a tough day for me. I dragged myself to the gym, got a pump in, got to work, saw a couple familiar faces which helped just looking at it. Didn't talk, just saw him and then went in the sauna for 20.

speaker-0: Thanks I did see that Sonic clip.

speaker-1: You saw that? I hit that sauna and it helped me by the night by the night. Okay, we can sleep. We can chill. But that day was just a crappy day. Duck game was happening. City was just it was it was weird man. Nice day beautiful weather, but just my man just evil man. Just I think it's just evil. It's just I was so down and I I know I can

speaker-0: Really? What was it in you?

speaker-1: I have a high leveled energy. I know this, but that means some days it's going to hit you and you're going to have a low energy.

speaker-0: I'm most worried for people like me and you and nothing against anybody else, but the people who are spiritually high, spiritually engaged, high energy, real focused, because sometimes we're the ones that have the hardest crashes, you because you got, you got, you know, my mellow people, and some days they're little down some days, but they kind of keep it cool. We are our energies, we absorb a lot of energy, because energy is a thing that never dies. Energy doesn't die, it just gets transferred. So that's my interpretation of that. So when somebody with a bad energy or a bad juju or something comes around me and my energy is feeding their energy, but I'm still eating that energy, I'm gonna go home with some of the energy and be a little confused on what's happening. And when I get confused, I get irritated. When I get irritated, I shut down. And when I shut down, I isolate. And that's just the facts in the order that it goes in for me.

speaker-1: And that's what I did. isolate. Yeah. And that wasn't that wasn't the call. I didn't even walk the puppy. And usually I'll walk the puppy and do that saying something. It's wild. She knows if I'm on the computer. ⁓ yeah. Editing if I'm sitting on the electronics too much. It's wild. That dog watches me so much. She will come in the office, start crying, pawing me. lot of people don't realize your dog is watching you. Your dog really is trained in until a lot of people hold the dog just wants to go for a walk. No, she knows with me. And then so when we go walk, I look I go I pad or baby girl good call. Because I just feel that coming down. Yeah. Good call baby.

speaker-0: Fills you. Yeah, I watched the videos when you're talking and you can tell the dog's energy when you're like, no, calm down girl. Wait, stay with me. And you can see she like slows down. You're like, thank you, dude. But like a real conversation with the energy, you know, she can feel that.

speaker-1: And one thing I say, I think animals most I would say in general, most animals are closer to God than we are. Yeah. They don't have distractions like us. They don't have iPhones and iPads and TVs where they just sit and get consumed and influence. They got us and they're quiet. So they they I think they'd be knowing God. So through her, there's times she yeah, she like, bro, let's go.

speaker-0: Yeah, you pop out. Yeah, they got two missions to love and protect who they're with. And that's a very good mantra for me. ⁓ Love and protect who I'm with who who we're with.

speaker-1: Period. Come on. Man, so so yeah, that's that last Saturday. That's why I'm very grateful today's been so great for me because last Saturday was rough man. I just said man

speaker-0: I feel you man. That's why I told Anita I got up at 4 430 this morning, you know, got up, my push ups, my coffee, lay down with my baby for a minute, you know, get that good energy. And I just want to give a shout out to the people who do this. A six second kiss and a 30 second hug can improve your dopamine by about 30 to 50%. So for everybody out there who wants a little boost in the morning, a six second kiss or a 30 second hug. that dopamine is going to rise up your energy is going to start flowing that positivity starts taking in this little food for thought right there. But ⁓ yeah, in the morning time got up, I did my my eight hours. We we threw 6000 pounds of tea and then went home has some food came here. Okay.

speaker-1: That's deep. Appreciate that. here. Yeah, appreciate that. Yeah. Yeah. It's uh it's yeah it's wild man. It's wild. We had a crazy workout yesterday. We did legs. That was what you saw. We put it through it.

speaker-0: Watch me. Yeah. I only saw two of them though. scared to do legs at the gym man with them boys man I see them them but you know transformer quadriceps boy I can't

speaker-1: Man, them, them fellas was looking at me. Yes. What's up? Really? Yeah, we got Saturday, Sunday off. went Monday through Friday this week. So come on. man, ⁓ they were so mad at me, man. ⁓

speaker-0: Holy Some boys take their creatine in that protein.

speaker-1: You know, they were talking. They were talking. It is to me, right? They was talking. But I know that's their way to vent. It's fine.

speaker-0: they get that same love back. I hear when your boy calls, ⁓ I think that guy who the guy who called about the flannel, I think that was the same cat who called when we was at Starbucks. Because you had had a drink and he's like, he's like, man, what in the left? ⁓ goofy girl drink it. And you're like, man, I'm with me like I'm with a client right now. And he's like, ⁓ my bad, bro. But you can tell that you can hear the family. You can hear the friendship in there. And that's, that's good to hear. That's good.

speaker-1: Yeah, gotta have it there. You ain't got somebody that ain't poking you ain't miss pushing you ain't making talking some smack saying things you usually went in here. Yeah. Yeah. That's your heart. You're hurt. gotta have so with that push. They know that's what's important with the team to everyone got to know their role in this mission.

speaker-0: Hell yeah.

speaker-1: Who's the sniper? Who's the heavy gunsman? Who's the sergeant? Who's the captain? Who's the demolitions? Who's the medic? Everybody in the team. Everybody want to be Jordan. We just got to know how are we all going to eat?

speaker-0: I tell people and this is a saying I heard in the movie said everybody wants to be the main actor. He goes, but not everybody's cut out to be the main actor. He says, sometimes you're just going to be a stand in and that's okay because you're still part of the big picture. It's just not everybody's a Jordan, you know, not not everybody can do 150 pushups in a row. You know, shout out to me. You know, ⁓

speaker-1: you. ⁓

speaker-0: 100 burpees before bedtime. But ⁓ but but the point being I explained it to with my with my recovery is imagine somebody trying to get sober. So you have a big puzzle, but there's a one little puzzle piece missing. And no matter what you do to try to fill that puzzle piece, it doesn't fit and you're always looking for it. That's what recovery in life is, whether it's alcohol, drugs, or friendship, love, divorce, marriage, kids. It's you're always looking for that piece. You got to find that piece to be whole man because the grass is not greener on the other side, bro. The grass is greener where you water it. My wife tells me that all the time. It's not it's not going to the next and go into the next and go into the state where you're at and fix it. Fix yourself first and then move on and don't try to I get a little too pumped up. Don't give advice when this side is in shambles. Please don't try to give me advice when you can't even pick up your kids, you can't hold a job or you can't stay sober for 30 days.

speaker-1: And that's what's happening on social media. A lot of broken people are trying to give complete advice. Yeah. So that's true. Yeah, that's true. I back just dating wise. So I slow down. I asked those questions and I start realizing this. I'm whoa, you got some you got some things and it's not out of thinking I'm perfect. No, but I'm just saying, hey, you got some things you got patch up. Yeah, it's like, dude, you got to pass this you got past that and nothing wrong with it. We all do. I tell everybody when they compliment me only difference with me. ain't gave up period. I gave up. That's all it is. ⁓

speaker-0: Nipsey quote. Nipsey cool. He said that one time he said he said it was I think it was in the beginning of the end of a song he says the only difference between us and those cats is that we never stopped trying. And that's where that's where real success is bro. do some and you fail, that's okay, you got experience. You do this, you got two, somebody may like it. You do it next month, got six, it's okay, the slow progress, it's like the gym. took me 10 years to get a chest bro. It took me 10 years to look a little bit cocky. And I still got many, many miles to go. And I'm okay because I have somebody here pushing me. I have people here loving me. And I need that, I need that accountability.

speaker-1: off.

speaker-0: I'll call my wife I'll text you be like, Hey, I just passed the store and I really want to drink right now. My hands will literally be shaking this because that's how bad I feel it in my bones. Deep and that's a thing that I can't explain to we call them normies. It's not like a bad or thing but my wife she's a normie. She doesn't drink. She doesn't smoke. She drinks maybe a beer a year. She may be had a little stogus cigarette maybe at the casino at seven feathers. You know, she just won $300.

speaker-1: Wow.

speaker-0: And she's like, woo with some Chardonnay. Hey, let's go. let's go. Okay, Live that life, Live that life. I said, I knew you had something. ⁓ Can I get 20? don't even start with the let me hold some. Let me hold some. But we got the people in our corner pushing us in. You know, I think the people that do stay away and the people who

speaker-1: How much you weigh it? Let me hold.

speaker-0: self-sabotage, they don't want that accountability. know, they don't want that. Like, okay, for instance, for me at work, I'm a great leader. I can be a lead, a supervisor, but once you give me that title, I start doubting myself because now people are counting on me. the fear of letting my family and my loved ones, letting you guys down is almost an emotional thing that I won't even dare to step in. because I know those repercussions, I skip a step, I'm falling and I don't think I can make it back out this time around.

speaker-1: Wow. Yeah, that's deep. imposter syndrome too.

speaker-0: Yes. Yes. I for many, many years when I was drinking my my grass monkey, the funky monkey. ⁓ Boy, did I have Napoleon complex so bad I wanted to get on slow and fight every big person that I ever saw. But it was a complex I had in the complex I had to lose. Understand that we are who we are. I am who I am. And people are going to love me or hate me no matter what. I can't make somebody love me. I can't make somebody hate me. People are envious. People are jealous. It's not my fault. I'm not saying I'm the ish but man.

speaker-1: Okay.

speaker-0: I got an attitude that's spoken for itself. You know, I want a trip to Italy for positivity. You know, my wife had to tell me at the wedding, Eddie, come sit down. It's because I wanted everybody to feel welcome.

speaker-1: you did a damn good job. you, Thank you. you. you. It's it's beautiful to hear that. That's what else I love about you. You come from a checkered past. This ain't just ⁓ I fell in this hole and did this and this. This is like I decided to do this. I decided to do that. Yeah, this is the people I have around me. You got some people around that really change people's lives for the worse physically, mentally. You come from that and I and that's what I but that's what I love about you.

speaker-0: It was amazing.

speaker-1: You chose nah, I'm gonna do it this way. way where I'm genuinely I'm you're genuinely happy. You're genuinely happy. You're happily married. There's not a lot the normies like it bugs me at times. I try not to let it but it's just like ⁓ my gosh you guys it's okay to fall into the real you. It's okay because just like a doctor you can't fix your life unless you diagnose it.

speaker-0: step.

speaker-1: You got to know what's wrong with you. I dude, even just like I said, date and talking to some of these ladies. I'm like, dude, what? Yeah. Oh yeah. I did a little bit. Bugger sugar. I did a little I drunk this much and blacked out and she they be talking like this. I'm like, whoa, I said, you did what?

speaker-0: Like it's a flirt.

speaker-1: ⁓ I know you be preaching God and stuff. It's not even that. It's just that's crazy.

speaker-0: That's a natural intimidation from people too because you love God.

speaker-1: even talking it. I'm not even pushing it on them. I might say bless you like they sneeze but I'm just and ⁓ dude. Wow blows my mind. Yeah, but never know who's the angel either. So sometimes you just gotta not sometimes all the time to show love and just go

speaker-0: Well, I'll tell you what, man, you know, taking a chance isn't always it's not always a bad thing because people are scared to take a chance. My lady took a chance on me, you know, she showed me the unconditional love, the same love that God has for us. Absolutely. You know, and I know not everybody agrees with with God and everything. And that's okay. You don't have to love him. Just let me love you. Let me love you. Let me show you. And it's everyone's always looking what can God do for me? What about what we can do for God? We're supposed to be the vessels for and just because

speaker-1: And that, Thank you. Hmm.

speaker-0: We lead again, we lead them to the water. We can't make everybody drink and it's not, and it's okay. It's okay. It's your choice. That's why God gave us a choice of free will to make the decisions we want. The rest is up to us.

speaker-1: Yeah, it's it's funny though. See, see y'all married and how happy y'all is. love it because it's just the importance of coming home to someone that foundation each night. I was watching I thought about y'all because I was watching y'all seem think like a man. ⁓ yes. Kevin Hart. Yes. The old movie Kevin Hart. The tough guy, prideful guy. I'm going with the girls. I'm clubbing and girls calling them the whole time. Yeah, answering the whole movie. And I thought about y'all because I was like, damn. Cause I had a moment like this. was like, you know, I go out whatever, boo boo Yeah. End of the movie. He said, I got to go to a restaurant. He said, girl, I've come at home.

speaker-0: Yeah, he calls her up and said, baby, I'm coming home. miss you. because I. Oh, my God.

speaker-1: do that you want some popcorn? I'm out into these clubs with all these brothers. I'm done.

speaker-0: The last couple of times, which has been years, but the last couple of times that I've been now, I felt very out of place. was still, you know, I was still like laughing and, you know, joking with everybody. like to get all the way involved and get faded and try to hook. just something wasn't sitting right with my spirit, you know, and I and that's when I kind of noticed things are changing just a little bit and I go out and I just I feel uncomfortable.

speaker-1: Man.

speaker-0: I wanted to go home. don't know. I can't explain what it is. just didn't. I think that was myself telling me that this ain't for you. This ain't for me. And I'm okay with that.

speaker-1: genuinely. Yeah. What I want to circle back to you said something that caught my attention earlier maintenance drinkers. Will you elaborate on that?

speaker-0: So maintenance drinkers are people who they don't really have like the shakes in the morning. They don't really need it like all the time. But it's somebody who keeps a constant buzz throughout the day. So they'll have a beer at eight in the morning, ⁓ one in the afternoon and seven o'clock at night. And they're not drunk, but that euphoria of that feel good. And those are the ones that's very hard. to notice and catch. Because I've done it, it it'll maybe less like a month. Because then I then I just went full blown. But for the people who can do it, the biggest concern about that is the later age is the health. That was my mom, my mom was a maintenance drinker. And that's fine, because she's two years over two years sober now. But she would drink in the morning and then drinking afternoon drink. And she there's very few times I've seen her drunk. But I always had it was like, man, I think I think she's drinking. Like her eyes would be like my wife would tell me your eyes, Eddie, your eyes speak to me. Because when I'm like, Hey, what's up, guys, you know, and then I get this real like, this real undertone mad dog look. And it's so easy to tell, you know, I can cover my breath up, I can take a shower. But that that look in my face, she knows, you know, and so for this, so I got to be careful with those ones. ⁓ Those are the ones kind of come around and kind of sabotage the sobriety part. They're like, it's just a don't trade, man. It's just a beer in the morning. You'll be fine, bro. Look at me. I've been doing it for a year.

speaker-1: scare. Is that a maintenance drinker if it's every weekend? Hey, I just drink on the weekends. Is that considered a maintenance drinker?

speaker-0: No, no, no, no. Main and drinkers are every day. Main and drinkers are. Yeah, no, that's just, that's just a weekend, a weekend. I tell people if you can go Monday through Friday without having a drink, you're fine. I mean, of course, don't drink 15 bottles of Whiskey Jack and Syrac on the weekends and do a bunch of lines and smoke Hella weed. That doesn't make up for the week. But if you can go a whole week, it's safe to say that you're okay. You're doing all right. Yeah.

speaker-1: every day.

speaker-0: But for the maintenance guys, that's just an every mine was full blown. got, you know, morning, noon, afternoon, people next to my bed, keep it warm, keep it hot, get drunk faster. It's a whole science telling you.

speaker-1: it's it's wild this I just think this is such good info I was I was talking with some fellas shout out to the sauna at this gym. I just come I compare this because this is real similar talk I hear dudes talking about adult entertainment, consuming adult entertainment, the corn for YouTube say corn sir. And it's just it's so wild to just hear the similarities. The maintenance the week this that that I even think it's worse honestly at times because ⁓ yeah, it's just here every day. And dudes is consuming that and that plays into the date and roll society role. And even even with the girls, the girls are monetizing it now, which ain't helping nobody. Nope. Only fans ain't helping nobody. No, none of that is helping anybody. Of course, they defend it because it makes them money. It's feeding them. It's keeping the roof over their heads. Of course, you're gonna fight it and say, ⁓ no, I'm just working this. But really, it's just I hear the correlation back to I'm gonna talk to the fellas. There's a lot of good dudes out there who've been done wrong and this and that. So they kind of give up and just consume what's on the screen.

speaker-0: And for the man out there who believe in spiritual warfare for the man who believe in the evil power of lust, that pornography because you know, I've had I've had my shirt back in the day. You know, I understand there's no shame in my game. It's it was there. I watched. Okay, let's move on. But for the man out there who understands semen retention, I don't know if this is too personal. Spiritual gratuity.

speaker-1: We all. Nah,

speaker-0: And semen retention with the energy that you naturally have is a real thing. It's been studied. There's research. There's people from universities that have done spokes like speaking on this. So that low energy if and for everybody who believes in vibrations, okay, we're all frequencies and vibrations in a sense, other than the spiritual inner being that makes us be who we are. Doing that pornography will lower your vibration and keep you in a low depressed state for many, many days, the anxiety, the depression, the

speaker-1: Absolutely.

speaker-0: unloved for your partner. You don't want to do anything with them because you know, when you're on a phone, there's no there's no sweat. There's no smell. There's no breath. There's no hair in your face. There's no you stepped on my toe. This is you. You said it how you want. That's why when the men get in real life, the erectile dysfunction, all that stuff plays in hand with that stuff. And it's it's not just something you do.

speaker-1: It's a studio.

speaker-0: It's a personal spiritual thing. lust is the biggest sin. It's the biggest demon for the people out there who do Bible stuff.

speaker-1: And that's why that's why I told you earlier with the young ladies who were like, ⁓ you're not just gonna sleep with me who were saying that to me. Yeah, just gonna sleep. ⁓ wow. You're really reserved to yourself. That things like that. Yeah. And that's why the energy transfer. Yeah, it's it's so true. Because I'm telling I'm saying, hey, you might have somebody lay up with you. This dude, who knows where his spirit is? Who knows what he shared with you? lovemaking sex is the biggest energy transfer. Who knows what what spirit you have by you right now? Because that Jezebel spirit crazy.

speaker-0: Yes, especially the men who they, you know, don't wear condoms and they're finishing it. Do you know that the men's semen stays in the woman for X amount of time and a part of his is inside of her for a really long time? No matter how long or how much she's been, it's still there. we're

speaker-1: No matter talking pregnancy. No saying this there.

speaker-0: We're just saying like it's in the system, it's in the DNA, your DNA is transferred to them. So that's what I tell people, be careful who you're hooking up because you might pick up some bad spirits and bad energy and you're going to be all twisted and you're not going to know why.

speaker-1: not going to know why you think you blame it on everything else. Yeah. And that's and that's what I'm saying. Even for the fellas. I think that's real important. That's something and we're speaking from experience, right? We're we're speaking from we're not saying ⁓ we read this and ⁓ real life situation. And so yet again, with ladies they go you're real reserved. You're Yes, I am I have to protect myself. And going back to adult entertainment. Absolutely. That stuff just is a poison. It's a poison and I tell people

speaker-0: Congratulations. If anybody was to go on a website and just look at how many commas there are with how many videos is associated. It's like somebody won the lottery. It doesn't make sense, brother. Shouldn't be 99 million videos. Like, do you not have a day job? Do you not have a family? Like, what are you doing all day?

speaker-1: And it gets worse with people just like any other addiction. Now they need more. It has to get worse. has to get more violent.

speaker-0: So that natural love between the man and the woman, that natural sanctity is not there no more. want all this. I mean, unless you've been married for 20 years and you guys are going to the Bahamas and doing the freaking Diki, that's cool because you guys are doing your thing. But if you're just meeting somebody like, man, I need this, this chainsaw hanging from the roof and I need you to pull my big toe. me Johnny. That's that's weird. That's not normal for that. And that's that's where the whole love marriage connection, God's spirit. It's not there, man. It's just just two people hanging out. And that's why people are wondering, why is not too many people married? How come relationships ain't lasting? Yeah. How come they're cheating? How come they're this? It was the pre mess up from before that ruined the thing in the first place. So you walked in with bad spirit. Now you still got bad spirit.

speaker-1: Not last. straight up. Yeah, that's real talk. And so yeah, I noticed that I say for myself, he I had so I have my first one night stand I was 32. I was 32. I was in Mexico on a trip. Don't really really

speaker-0: Mexico will do it. ⁓

speaker-1: And that was that was it was it was a trip. It was a trip. And I mean, if I'm going to do garage talks, I got to keep it real with you in my audience too, because otherwise, why am I doing this? That was a trip. Great time. Whole trip. So I'm not going to sit here and look at you and be like I was the next day. ⁓ my gosh, I wasn't. But what was a trip for me what made me realize a little bit more. I hung out with a different lady. after that. And what got me is we were in the pool. This was actually a vibe. This was I think in a weird way. This is God talking to me. She had a Bible verse tatted on her. And it was one of my favorite ones. And so lady I hung out with the first night, never talked to her again. Then it made me realize this next girl I hung out with. Sure, we ain't talking no more. But the whole trip. She was like my vacation girlfriend.

speaker-0: ⁓ okay.

speaker-1: We just vibe the whole talking this talking that having fun just in that held me from trying to bounce around the resort being crazy. Yeah. And so I just had one person who I just vibe with. And so I took that home with me and said, okay, not saying that just fixed me right there, but I said, okay, obviously you're better off having long-term commitments with people and understanding them before you just go around just wild and now so I had that contrast hung out with someone for one night. Didn't talk to him again, hung out with someone else for the next four or five days of the trip to our way home. And it gave me that many contrast of, okay, I got to know this person a little bit better.

speaker-0: was that first one like a teepee like blame it on ⁓

speaker-1: I'm of here. We was, it was!

speaker-0: Come on Mexico! ⁓

speaker-1: Cancun got me man. Tequila got me. We're in the pool with this. But that contrast did show. So I said, all right, bet, I get it now. But wow. Crazy. This world's

speaker-0: Goodbye. That's funny, bro. Right. That's the first of me hearing about that story, too, by the way. I've never heard that story before.

speaker-1: It is. Yeah. But it's a safe space here, right? Yes,

speaker-0: I feel like I feel like you have a harder time though bro like finding somebody like that because you are so involved with who you want to be try to find a woman and not girl not chick not whatever a woman bad not a bad be no not a find a woman who knows what she wants has a direction and has short term and long term goals I can put a whole paycheck that If I went and interviewed 50 women, I'd maybe get one. And that's not a diss. One that has goals, one that has short term, long term, one that has dedication, one that has someone where they know they want to be and who they are. I feel like I'm 35. I know what I want and we know what we want. But I feel like the real flex for me is when I'm 40. I feel like when I'm 40,

speaker-1: Give one to what?

speaker-0: I'm going to just I'm going to zone in and I'm just going to have total control of my life and not in that way, but where I know exactly where Eddie and the news.

speaker-1: think you know that now. I think you just gotta stay on that path and continue to understand that path is upward. Right on. I do. Okay. Thank you. I think by the time you're 40, you'll be set. ⁓ Okay. But I think y'all good. Y'all gonna go through whatever. But long as y'all stay the path, you'd good.

speaker-0: Set by then. Set. Yeah, because we got good jobs. We're both spirit like she lets me pray. I go to meeting. She lets me talk, know, and she lets me share. She has a Bible. got my, you know, because we have parallel scripture. We try to share with each other. I send you scripture. Come home. Yeah, you're welcome. I'll come home and share. Be like, like, let me let me see your let me see. Let's compare them. Okay. And that's something that we do to stay spiritually strong with each other. Praying before every meal. When we get here, pray when you're going on long trips, pray for safety. It's it's

speaker-1: Yes, you do.

speaker-0: I'm telling people man the power of prayer. I have prayed many times from a homeboy. I are in Milwaukee and he calls me the next day bro and I swear he goes Eddie. I don't know what it was but your prayer really helped me man and I was like I was like I don't even remember that you know I prayed he goes yeah he goes I remember those things and you did and he goes and it came through he's like he's not saying it was because of that but the multitude when two or more people are in the room praying together the Holy Spirit is very very strong, it's very active, it's very

speaker-1: And that's why I say in that prayer right before garage talks. I pray we don't let the devil in we let any evil in here any craziness death

speaker-0: That's funny you say that because one of the ending parts of my prayer is God protect us from any evil from this household because negativity and evil spirits is not welcome here. This is a house of positivity. This is a house of growth. So thank you for coming today. I'm not trying to get rid of my demons. I need to sit down and have a conversation with them and say thank you. Thank you for being here today. I appreciate your service and thank you for learning and teaching me for who I am and getting those tough calluses. But I'm gonna hug you. It's time for you to sit down brother. It's time for the angels to step back in. But but hey, but thank you. You know, and that's what I think a lot of the evil out here just needs is a thank you. I appreciate you. You hate you. I love you, brother. Thank you so much. You know, I'm so sorry for you be mad, but do what you got to do. love you. And I'm telling you, watch that energy drop. You can't you can't fight that fire. Iron sharpens iron. That's another great scripture. But the flame feeds the flame to man. When somebody starts getting active, starts talking like that, know who you are. Remember where you're at. I forgot about that about six months back and now I'm facing court again in January. Okay. I'm facing things that, you know, I, I don't want to, I'm hoping that it's for the latter part, but I got to understand just like everything else that was yesterday, I can't do nothing about it. I can go to the date and I can go in with my positivity and my family knowing that I'm doing the right thing right now. And that's enough to hold me over brother. Going in somewhere in a bad space knowing that you've been messing up this whole time, you're going to have a hell of a hard time doing what you're doing wherever you're going. But if you know you're doing the right thing all the way up, just like God said, stay on the watch. Do everything till the last minute. Do not fall asleep because it's going to come like a thief in the night. When you think when everybody thinks, ⁓ peace and serenity, that's do not keep your eye off that bomb and keep it on.

speaker-1: Absolutely.

speaker-0: So that's what I'm trying to do right now. It's a struggle. It's a struggle because the old Eddie, it tends to come out in ways that I don't notice sometimes and my attitude starts changing. I start talking to my lady different and I go to sleep sad, brother. I go to sleep sad because she don't deserve that. know, a lot of people don't deserve that from me.

speaker-1: It is. No, they don't. Man, speaking of don't deserve, let's jump to it. This week, Charlie Kirk was taken out. His life was taken because of differences of beliefs, difference of opinion. What you think of that, man? I think I know people pass away every day and it's so sad. Different countries, different parts of the world, everything. I think here in America, this is a deep one. He's not he's a he's a debater. He had his ground. stood it. What do you think of that, man?

speaker-0: Well, I know that he is a, and shout out to the family too, you know, whether no matter what people say about conspiracy and it was a basis, that's not what I'm looking at. I'm looking at somebody potentially or did lose somebody and somehow, cause he was an outspoken Christian, you know, and a lot of people don't like here cause he's bringing Christ to the world. He said on one of his talks, Christ is our King and amen to that. Christ is our, He's our reigning King. He's our Redeemer, He's our Savior. And a lot of people didn't want to hear that. There's three things that he quoted on one of his last interviews. He said, they said, what is your biggest things that you bring to the table? Well, he goes, the only things that I know how to do, he says, one is only tell the truth. He said, two, I will not compromise my faith. And he said, three, I will always love on the lost. And he said that people...

speaker-1: No they don't.

speaker-0: It is normal and natural for people to die in certain ways for people to wake up and understand what's really happening. And that just happened to be who Charlie happened to be at that time.

speaker-1: And this is coming from someone you didn't follow him much.

speaker-0: do. I don't do so. Again, that's why I quote john 1716 is, I know not everybody agrees with me, but I don't vote. I don't get into politics. I don't we don't do war. I don't do I don't we don't do none of that. It's I follow a governmental rule to abide by the law by an abiding citizen. And I will respect that if you want to charge me 15 bucks for cheese, I'll pay 15 bucks for cheese. If I need to pay tithes to Kamala or something because she wants a new hair piece, then I'll do it. But if they say, Eddie, we need you to go to war. Nope. And it's not the fact that I don't give props to all because I give I got family that are soldiers. I got family that's an army, Navy Marines. I got family that's in there. But I just don't believe in the purpose behind it for the people that we're fighting for. I think that a lot of life just like Charlie was taken and are taken.

speaker-1: ⁓ yeah.

speaker-0: and there's nothing being done about it.

speaker-1: So even when he says controversial things, he said he this this world has empathy, it can't have too much empathy. He says things about different races and stuff you still hold love to a man because he is a man he is a child of God, just like you are. What is that? I'm pretty much just asking, he says a lot of controversial things that hurt people. What do you think of that? What do you think?

speaker-0: Persons. I've said many things that hurt people. I still love God. I've debated a lot of things that I've gone heads up with people for. I still love God. It's a debate. is that is his job. He goes to universities to debate. That is what he does. But just because you don't like it, that means now you take that person's life. That's the only thing I don't agree with. Whether he's left side, right side Christian cat. That's fine. Nobody deserves to die like that. Unless it's coming from my Most High Heavenly Father, let Him do the work. You know, hate His enemies how we hate our enemies. But it also said, give your enemy food, feed them when they're hungry. So it is not our job to do that. So for that reason, I don't agree with it. And then if you notice, ever since that happened, look at all this division again, all this division happening. Is it a distraction? Is it... Are we just rats in a bucket that they just throw something in there and say, look at these kids, look at these people run, run like little mice. Yeah, they're getting too smart. They're waking up way too much right now. People are reading too many Bible verses. The cultures are linking up. They're going against the government. Let's throw a little something out there. You know, let's throw some Taylor Swift out there. Get them distracted real quick. But I'm not saying that takes away from Charlie Kirk.

speaker-1: Turn up the dopamine, turn up the 5g.

speaker-0: That has nothing to do with Charlie. Charlie was an outspoken Christian who spoke his mind. Somebody didn't agree. He's gone. But how many people does that happen to preaching the good news? How many people does that happen to who's trying to make a change? Don't get too deep with John F. Kennedy. Okay, all the people who ⁓

speaker-1: MLK. ⁓ MLK was bringing people together. He's not doing like these new activists where they're trying to divide everybody and put one person down to bring person. MLK was trying to bring everyone together.

speaker-0: And so those people, it's that the crowd doesn't like it. It's a crowd. It's a crowd full of sheep, man. It's a crowd full of followers. It's I don't meet too many leaders.

speaker-1: Man, that's deep. So let me ask you this. Did all the people celebrate in him? ⁓

speaker-0: That's their choice. That has nothing to do with me.

speaker-1: but what's your opinion on that? People are literally celebrating that he was taken out. That's wild to me.

speaker-0: It's at the end of the day, my lady sent me a, it wasn't a Bible verse, but it was like a scripture type thing. And it said, if the world was a place where say Adam and Eve, where God did not give them the choice of free will, this world would not be full of love. It would be mandatory or die because God said either do this or die. He didn't do that for us. He gave us the choice of free will. That is their choice to do that. But that is where the separation is beginning. That is where the people are finding who's on the spiritual side and who is not. It's a spiritual warfare, brother. This is supposed to happen. Charlie Kirk was just a part of, in my opinion, a many to come prophecy of the end of times. In my opinion, from my study, we're in the book of Revelation right now. Living in the last day. I'm thinking since 1914, since things been cracking off, it's been getting worse and worse and worse.

speaker-1: Man. Yeah, we're like, days you're thinking that's that's

speaker-0: And in the Bible, you know, it says critical times hard to deal with will be here. Things will advance from bad to worse. Men will be lover of themselves instead of God, lustful, boastful, full of themselves. And look, it's happening.

speaker-1: fool themselves. So my one of my one of my mentor guys told me that I haven't read this myself, but in the book, it does say one of the signs is we're going to be too knowledgeable. We're have too much knowledge, lack wisdom. And now always stood out to me because that's very true. Now we have Google at our hands. So we think we know everything. We can't even sit and talk because I know it already know Eddie don't tell me. Don't tell me. And if you do tell me I'm gonna tell you it's wrong because I know it. That's where we're at. It's too knowledgeable. You don't have those. said earlier, not as many people on the porch because everyone knows everything now. You know it. We're not just we just know it. We're distracted and we know. Yeah. This guy I want to read this. I took a shot. I took a screenshot of this comment. This guy that's a friend of mine on Facebook posted celebrating Charlie's passing. This guy left a comment underneath that I thought and the dude was fighting off everybody that was mad at him that because he posted that. This guy, I'll just say the dude that left the comment, his name is Trevor. He left a comment that said, you may put me in a box after you read this, which is fine. I'm assuming this Trevor guy and the dude that posted what he posted know each other to. Okay. So he said, you may put me in a box after you read this, which is fine. I'm probably not in the box. You may think I'm in, but I get it. I think the old saying of two wrongs don't make a right. Still applies here. He was probably against the things you were for. but celebrating his homicide scoops you down to the low that you saw him. I don't think he celebrated when people were murdered, but he certainly didn't have enough empathy at times with death. So if you want to be different than Charlie was, don't reciprocate his actions. Otherwise people just see you as a Charlie 2.0. And I'm gonna take a wild guess and imagine you don't want to be known for the same actions as him. For the people who say you're disgusting, you're not. You're hurt and you're frustrated. and now need a bit or now a bit relief. And to that, I would say there are some incredible licensed counselors that can help you process and give you the tools for your thoughts and feelings. I thought I personally thought he worded that well.

speaker-0: That was very well worded. did anything come to a head or did they?

speaker-1: I thought he were. Wow. the dude that posted, I watched it. I see people don't realize I observe a lot. I do a lot of research. So when we have our conversations, the dude, he thanks for your consideration period left it at that. Cause everybody else he was fighting. Whoa. Yeah. Going crazy in the car.

speaker-0: Okay? Okay? When it gets to that part, we actually had a guy suspended from work for talking ill of the dead. He's either suspended or fired, but they took him to HR right there on the spot. The only reason they did it is because so many people's worked up. They're having a candlelight vigil for him tonight at the Altbaker Park or something like that.

speaker-1: something like that. I'm gonna jump in with you. know I asked your opinion and I'm gonna share mine because a lot of people have asked me what's my opinion on this. I've remained pretty silent. I was praying on it meditating. So, rest in peace to Charlie Kirk. I know of him. I don't know him. It's sad. People ask me and I'm not a Republican. I'm not a Democrat but I am on the side of just people. I'm on the side of people not dying. Yeah. And because that man had a difference of opinion doesn't mean you take his life. Right. Imagine being so good at debating so good standing on your business. What you believe in that they got to take you out because they can't defeat you. Yeah, but this is I know he said some things. But that's what he says. I don't know if my mind and my soul is that strong that it just don't affect me. But at the end of the day, I never shook his hand. I never shook his hand. I never looked him in the eyes. So I don't know him for better or for worse. But what's that old saying goes sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me. Words are powerful. Don't get me wrong. But we don't do that. This is America. I got white people who've done great things for me. I got white people who have tried to hurt me. I got black people that did the same. I got Mexican brothers. I got Indian brothers. I got every brother. And in this country, fortunately, we do have the freedom of speech. Because if we didn't, it'd be we looking like North Korea. So for that man who I see a father whose kids witnessed their dad get his life taken, I see a wife that's widowed.

speaker-0: I was just gonna say that, yep.

speaker-1: That is not okay to me and to everybody that celebrates his death. I've seen your comments. I've seen you people. I know in the vicinity. I wish you the best and I'm praying for you because obviously you're hurt and your soul is tainted something in your soul tainted. I'm just going to be real with you something's tainted Charlie Kirk didn't need to pass away. He didn't need to get his life taken. He debated he's speaking words just like everybody else can right yet again. I don't know much about him. But I know of him. I've seen clips. I've seen this. I've seen clips where people cut it short to make it look like he's trying to be extra racist. But I never witnessed him call someone the hard R never witnessed it. True. Yeah. I never witnessed it. The hard R I'm sorry. He's smart. He's a smart man. Yeah, I'm just going to be real. He's smart. But and I know he said, ⁓ I lack empathy or whatever. ⁓ well doesn't mean you scoop lower than him. Yeah. and celebrate in his life, your soul's tainted and I'm praying for you. I don't look at you different, but now I know your soul's tainted. And you know, it breaks my heart.

speaker-0: You see a side of people sometimes that you don't really want to see because it kind of changes your perspective on them.

speaker-1: No, I tried not to. I used to I tried not to though. But now I know. Okay. And the hate that's in people's hearts. And it's just funny. I see people who try to preach love this and this and then celebrate that there's there's weak minded people out there that let that happen. True. And I shout out Stephen A Smith for standing up and saying something similar. I stand out I shout out what's that football players name I wrote it down.

speaker-0: ⁓ yeah, like that same day he wrote a post.

speaker-1: this young man for the Vikings, think Justin Jefferson, he's given money if they need it. I'm on the side of right and the side of right is we don't want people dying. And that's just so it breaks my heart that opinions are getting people taken out. That's sick. It's sick. It's wrong. It's terrible. And people celebrating. It's a sad man.

speaker-0: spiritual debates are some of the hardest to talk about. Christian, Hebrew, those are the hard conversations to have because it's not too often that you can have a conversation with somebody and not get upset or be mad and be just so hateful to them at the end of the conversation. know, you can, I haven't seen anybody talk about that kind of stuff and just be like, all right, bro, have a good day.

speaker-1: Absolutely.

speaker-0: No, it's either a finger and if you are walk away, we don't talk no more. You know what mean? So it's like, ⁓ yeah, they had that. Yeah. The Charlie Kirkman that's just the way they did him was dirty, you know, the way they did him outside it like that in public.

speaker-1: Absolutely. front of and that was yeah, to to it to do it in front of everybody. That was a message sent sent a message

speaker-0: That's and that's why we have our conspiracy people because it was such a public thing. Somebody that's why people think it's deeper than just somebody who didn't like them to snipe somebody. Just get into some quick details to snipe somebody from 200 meters away with a 30-06. If anybody understands velocity of guns and wind. Do you know he was 22 years old, bro? this kid that shot him. There's no, no, I'm not saying no way, but the military gun training that you would need to hit a target from that far is very unlikely. So that's why we have our conspiracy people. Some say he had a bulletproof vest and they ricocheted his chest to his neck. Some say that he had a fake thing right here. Some, some people say he's in protective custody. I some people saying until we see the body, ain't Cause Remember, news is propaganda, brother. All this is propaganda. That's all America is, is propaganda.

speaker-1: Yeah, it's tough. I mean, we can definitely jump in there. It's it's tough. That's the one part I do. I mean, it's tough. That's the one part of social media. Everyone got a phone and can record. Yeah. But there's that. Yeah, very true. So it's tough. It's tough. But I see where you're going with that. It's Yeah, we could always the rabbit hole. I'm gonna take it for what it is. It's a message. And it's sick. ⁓ But yeah, and and rest in peace to the young Ukraine lady. ⁓

speaker-0: ⁓ do we got AI now?

speaker-1: How do you pronounce her name? Irina.

speaker-0: man I tried like yeah I tried to say that last name like three times and I just could not

speaker-1: Irina that that is so sad. I can't say the last name either, but Irina is so sad. I know we talked earlier about her, but rest in peace to her. She, she fled a war torn country to have a better life. And that happens that. Yep. So that, that breaks my heart to rest in peace to her. That's just unfortunate. And I'm on the side of love and positivity period. That is what it is. I'm gonna stand my ground. And I know not a lot of people are for that right now.

speaker-0: She was there for about seven years too.

speaker-1: And it's just heartbreaking. But yet again, I have a lot of allies. And I think yes, of all different colors. I think them in to everybody that's trying to do right and live with their heart. Get the races out of your heart. Get all the hate out of your heart. Shout out to you. Shout out to you real talk me because I ain't with that. I ain't with it at all. First thing I did when I heard that happened is pray for him. Period. Well, pray for that man. Soul say breaks my heart. Period. Yeah. And yeah. So I I appreciate you talking with me on that evening. Yeah, no worries. Well, we hit our time limit. Love you.

speaker-0: It don't even feel like we'd be here maybe 20 minutes.

speaker-1: man hour half hour 45 any last shout outs get some shout outs any love ⁓

speaker-0: Ooh, every time. ⁓ you know what to everybody out there who's trying to do the right thing. Just do it. Just do it. Just be like Nike and just do it. It's either yay or nay. Be the yay person. Don't be a naysayer. Be a naysayer. Yes. Let's get it.

speaker-1: Let's get it. Hey mama, will you hit mine? And world shout out JG mobile detailing. You guys, you got my Jeep, right? I got to shout you all out. Y'all came out yesterday. So I'm shouting y'all out. Shout out to everyone that's doing right. Operating with your heart, not just your mind. Your mind gets corrupted too easily. So everyone using their heart. Shout out to you. Remember, go ahead and hug your loved ones. Be present in the present. Cause your presence is a present. You know what it is. So I thank you guys for joining us in Garage Talks 5417 podcast yet again, smash that subscribe button, cause we need your help keeping them lights on. Ring that notification bell too. And yet again, shout out to Eddie brother. Love you, man. I love you. Thanks for having those strong talks with you.