Andrew Meher: If you have a Bible or you Google it or a Bible app, can you open up to Matthew, the book of Matthew, chapter 26? We're going to continue our sermon series that we have been in since the beginning of September, pretty much. We're learning how to pray like Jesus. Has this been helpful so far? Learning how to pray like Jesus. We are following Jesus' instruction on how to pray through the Lord's Prayer. And if you remember, we talked about how praying like Jesus, when we're praying, prayer is not just a It's about making this life a little bit more tolerable. Prayer is not just about, like, God, I could I could really use this or that just to help me kind of get over this next hurdle. What prayer is about is joining us with the life of God. It is about bringing us not just into a little bit of a better life now, but it is about bringing us into a completely new life that God has for us. This is why Jesus, in his teaching on prayer in Luke, he says, if you who are bad parents, sinful parents, know how to give really good gifts to your kids, how much more does your father in heaven give good gifts? And how much more will he give you the Holy Spirit? And so we learn how to ask and seek and knock. And then one other thing I want to remind you about is the Lord's Prayer, which we'll pray together here at the end of today's message before we take communion. Jesus said, When you pray, say this. Literally in the Greek, he's saying, When you pray, recite these words. now, some of us who grew up in a tradition that was maybe not a Catholic church tradition, or what what I would call a High church tradition. This is what we call low church. Like this is like informal, right? So if you grew up in like a high church tradition, you might be really familiar with reciting the words of the Lord's Prayer every week, right? I didn't grow up in that tradition. I thought like growing up, I'm not supposed to recite prayers because then it doesn't mean anything. Because it's not authentic to my me and my experience. Well, guess what? My experience is pretty messed up sometime, and I think I need Jesus' words to pray. Or how about this? I was speaking to someone this week who Who just in a compl their life has imploded recently and they don't know how to pray. Pray the Lord's Prayer. You'll get your words from that. But when when the disciples say, teach us to pray, and Jesus says, say this, he says this so that they would always recite this prayer. And the church has prayed this prayer for 2,000 years. But also, not only are to we are we to recite the prayer, but the prayer then, once it's in us, it begins to inform all of our personal prayers. And it begins to shape the way we do our personal prayers. So I want you to understand and just remind you of that every week: that when we pray, we are joining into the life. of God and also that we are praying and reciting this so we can learn to pray through right reciting this prayer, but also so that it can it it can inform our personal prayer. That makes sense? So that's why we're doing this. And and so today we're gonna continue by looking at the third line of the prayer, your kingdom come. And your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. And let's read this text from Matthew 26, verses 36 to 39, so we can actually see Jesus put this line of prayer into practice in his own prayer life. Jesus is in the Garden of Gethsemane before he is crucified, and he says this. It says this in Matthew. Then Jesus went with his disciples to a place called Gethsemane. And he said to them, Sit here while I go over there and pray. He took Peter and the two sons of Zebedee along with him, and he began to be sorrowful and troubled. And then he said to them, My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me. And going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, My Father, if it is possible to May this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will. Let's pray. Lord teach us to pray. Shape our prayer life to look more like you every day. Bring us into the life of God more and more as we pray. In Jesus' name. Amen. I want to give you a little history lesson. Some of you know I'm a bit of a history nerd, so just put your nerd hat on. How many nerds we got in the room? We got we got a few history nerds. You love you love some history. I'm disappointed there's not more of you. I'm just saying. I I want to tell you about a guy named Maximilien Robespierre. Can you say Robespierre? Robespierre. Some of you might be familiar with this guy. Doesn't he look so dashing and fresh? Pretty sure he was in his twenties, if I did my math right. Late 20s, early 30s. These guys, he was he was one of the leaders during the French Revolution. and especially he was the guy in charge during the year of the French Revolution, known as the Reign of Terror. During the Reign of Terror, it's estimated that about 35,000 to 45,000 people were killed. About a year to sixteen months, I don't even think it was quite a year and a half. Thirty-five thousand to forty-five thousand people were killed in France. Close to twenty thousand of those, I think it was about seventeen, a little over seventeen thousand of those, were official death sentences signed by Robespierre and the new French government. And they were all executed via guillotine. Maximilian believed that a new day had dawned for humanity in France at this time. He believed that the French nation, which was the largest and most powerful on earth at this time, had just overthrown its king. No one in Europe had ever seen a monarch on overthrown in this way. And so they believed that a new world had dawned and that this new French Republic was a new sign of a kind of heaven on earth. Something ultimate and everlasting. In fact, Robespierre and his companions believed and were so convinced that they were the bringers of a new kind of humanity upon the earth that they did several things to kind of change daily life in France so people would know this. This is year zero of all of the rest of history. One of the things that they did was they changed the calendar to a 10-day week. That didn't work out too well. But it lasted for a little while. Had a brief heyday, they had a 10-day week. They renamed all of the months of the calendar to align with different French figures and things like that. They renamed everything, right? And they started, this one did stick, they started to use the metric system for the first time. So they were changing all of these things, but they changed all these things to make a point. This is the dawn of what all of humanity has been waiting for, and we are here. Most significant to Rubespierre, though it was probably the least long-lasting of all of these changes, though, but it was the one that he cared about the most, was his change to bring the French people what he believed they needed most. He believed they needed a way to pray that shaped them all into this new vision of this new French humanity that they were witnessing. And so. he saw the the Christian church of his time, corrupt as it certainly was, but he saw the Christian church as as a a center of competing loyalty to what they were trying to do with this French republic, and they denied the Christian God. And what they did instead was they competed, they decided to establish a practice and a set of worship practices to what Robespierre called the supreme being. His own made-up deity, essentially, that was basically a worship of France and a worship of what they had accomplished. And he said this in a prayer to the Supreme Being at the founding festival of this new kind of worship. He said this: Never has the world which he, the Supreme Being, created, offered to him a spectacle so worthy of his notice. As the French state is what he's saying. He is see he has seen reigning on the earth tyranny, crime, and imposture. He sees at this moment a whole nation grappling with all the oppressions of the human race, suspend the course of its heroic labors to elevate its thoughts and vows toward the great being, who has given it the French, the mission it has undertaken, and the strength. To accomplish it. Amen, is what Worp Spear would say next. In his mind, Robespierre thought their new government was a finally going to establish peace on earth. One just had to overlook the tens of thousands of executions that he had ordered at the guillotine. Sadly for him, he believed so much in this project, it actually destroyed him. Quite literally. Towards the end of the reign of terror, actually the end of the reign of terror, he started to be suspected. as a loyalist by his own group and his own party, and they turned on him, and he was executed by the guillotine. And when he died it brought an end to the reign of terror by most accounts. He prayed to a God of his own making. And this is where he ended up. He prayed and imagined that this God would bestow a kingdom on them of their own design. And it destroyed him. I want to Highlands Community Church be really explicit with this here. I want you to notice how Robespierre prayed and who Robespierre prayed to. He prayed to a God of his own making, like we talked about last week when we talked about hallowed be your name, holy is your name, about fixing who God truly is on our eyes so that we do not get confused about who God is and who God is not. We talked about that last week, remember, to when we pray to our gods of our own making, instead of asking the Father's holiness to stay before us, what we begin to do is we begin to make our own decisions about what justice and goodness look like. Because we have lost the one who is truly just and good from before our eyes. And so naturally, hallowed be your name is followed by your kingdom come and your will be done. on earth as it is in heaven. When we decide what justice and flourishing are going to look like on our own terms, it will always be a human kingdom instead of the Father's kingdom. Robespierre is the most extreme example of this happening. And probably the most straightforward way for us to understand what we're going to talk about today is this. You and I, all of us, myself included, the entire world, we are hardwired by a sinful world and our broken, sinful condition to pray for our own kingdoms and our own wills to be done on our own terms. But however, even in the midst of that, perhaps you and I do not do what Robespierre did. I don't think anyone's been ordering executions executions by guillotine recently. Thank God. Each of us have our own ideas about what kingdoms should be in charge of this world. We have our own ideas about how our will or our desires or our agenda Should be at work in different situations in life, in our neighborhoods, in our families, in our workplaces, in our governments of the world. We have our ideas in our schools and in our school boards. I have agenda, I have little kids, I've got ideas and agendas and opinions about what should be happening in their schools. Right? We all do. But we need to recognize that while we all fail time and time again and always make our own kingdoms on our own terms. We have one who is exceedingly good that teaches us how to pray and who teaches us how to pray rightly. We have the good news of the Jesus we see here in a garden about to be betrayed. This Jesus who taught us to pray, Your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven, is shown here in our text in a garden, right before he's going to be betrayed, convicted in a sham trial by his own people, and then executed by the state. We see this Jesus here in the garden, knowing all of this is coming, and he says, Yet not what I will, Father, but what I will. You will. You see, Jesus didn't pray that his disciples would avenge him. Jesus didn't pray that they would storm the temple or the Roman garrison and overcome them. Jesus didn't pray for strength to mount an assault or for his enemies to be punished. Jesus didn't pray any of those things because Jesus knew that to pray in that way was to take matters into one's own hands. And if humans take matters into their own hands, it always will eventually lead to destruction and death. Robespierre prayed for matters to be taken into his own hands. Jesus prayed that matters would be in God's hands. And so, friends, what I want us to understand is when we pray, your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. We're praying in a way that Jesus taught us. And when we pray how Jesus taught us, it reshapes what kingdom we pray for and whose will we desire. This is the hope of what I want to get at today. When we really learn how to pray like Jesus, we pray in a way that reshapes what kingdom we long for and what will we. And whose will we desire. And so today, just briefly, I want to unpack these three words to help us understand how to pray better. And it's these words of God, it's these ideas of God's kingdom, God's will, and what we mean when we say heaven and earth. And I and I hope that just very briefly, unpacking these will help us to understand. How to pray like Jesus when it comes to these things. First, let's look at God's kingdom. What do we say when we say the kingdom of God? Did you know the idea, the concept of the kingdom of God or the kingdom of heaven shows up in the Gospels as as something Jesus teaches on almost more than anything else? Probably I think maybe the most in in the four gospels, the kingdom of God. What is the kingdom of God? The New Testament and and Gospels scholar Scott McKnight describes the kingdom of God this way. It's the Society of God's people flourishing in this world under Christ as the King. It is, let me say that again, the society of God's people flourishing in this world under Christ as the King. And what this means is, is the people of God who are living under the reign of King Jesus. are are the society learning how to flourish because we're doing what Jesus said to do. We're the society of people who is joined together in Christ, and we are living out God's kingdom life because we are doing what Jesus said to do. What did Jesus teach us to do? Well, think about the Lord's Prayer that we're in, especially in Matthew. The Lord's Prayer in Matthew is right smack dab in the center of what we might call the constitution of the church. it is smack dab in the center of the Sermon on the Mount. Jesus' kind of core teachings are all distilled and in this sermon on the mount. So it's the sermon that starts, you know, blessed are the poor, right? Blessed are the peacemakers. Blessed are you when you are persecuted. When people say all kinds of terrible things about you, all of all of that. When Jesus says that the law and the prophets of the Old Testament are fulfilled in Jesus, we interpret all of our understanding of that through Jesus. That's all in the Sermon on the Mount. And what Jesus is doing in the Sermon on the Mount is he is outlining what it looks like to live in his kingdom. He's not saying this is something that's aspirational that we try and get to and hopefully will be that someday. He's saying do this now. He's saying live in this way now. And when we live in this way, we begin to experience God's justice and God's righteousness. We begin to learn what it actually means to care for each other in a society. And this is why it's described, and and God described this, and Jesus describes this as his kingdom. It's his reign and rule in a way that doesn't really fit with any earthly governments or ways of doing things. Because Jesus is often prioritizing the people who have nothing. The people who are weak, the people who are on the outside. And he's prioritizing a faithfulness and a trust in him alone to lead us. And so the kingdom of God means we're experiencing justice as God defines justice, not as we would like to define justice. And it also means that we're learn we're living righteously and wholly as God would define those things, not as we would prefer to define it. All of us, when we define those things, we like to define it by our our special rules that we're really good at, right? And we leave out the things that are like, well, that one's little hard for so I'm gonna put that off to the side. I don't know what to do with that. You know what I'm saying? Are you guys alive this morning? Okay. So God's God's kingdom is about Jesus' rule and reign. Now, we'll come to the the the question some people have. Wait a minute, you said this kingdom is now on earth. We're experiencing this now. I thought God's kingdom was something in eternity. Please hold that question until we get to the heaven and earth part. Okay? Hold that question. Just suspend that for a minute. We're gonna answer that. but when we say God's kingdom, what we are saying is Jesus has a way of ruling. That we as the church are called into, and it will not always fit with the way that governments and other rulers and other people decide society should be organized. Does that make sense? So this is why, like, I have a pastor, theologian friend who says this: to pray the Lord's Prayer is really radical because we are praying for the downfall of America. We're also praying for the downfall of every other government on earth. It's it's everything. It's saying none of these earthly kingdoms can quite do it. We need them right now so there's not utter chaos and anarchy. We're not praying for that. But we recognize and we see through all the lingo, like Robespierre, saying, look, a new dawn has come. We can see through all the partisan lingo and the rhetoric of look what we're gonna do. And we can say, Well, you have a responsibility right now to make sure things are not chaotic, but this is not God's kingdom. Thank you very much. And so, as Christians, especially, I'll just say this pastorally, as we head into a contentious election season, let's not get confused about what kingdom we are praying for. We are not seeking our kingdoms or whatever particular party you may vote for's kingdom. We are praying and yearning and longing for the kingdom of our Father. So God's kingdom is about God's rule and reign realized in Jesus. Second word that I want to just highlight is God's will, similar to God's kingdom, but sometimes this is kind of interpreted as what God's desire and agenda is for us now, while we're waiting for the fullness of God's kingdom to be realized. Okay? this is God's desire and agenda for humanity. in the meantime, we have God's kingdom here, but you're probably got some questions about why God's kingdom's not all the way here yet, in some ways. there's problems in the world, isn't there? There there might be one or two. You might have some ideas in mind about what the problems are. And we're living in a world before the fullness of God's new world has come. And so we need to pray and ask God that our will would be in line with His, that our will would be in line with His as a church. You can think about your will in a couple of different ways. What do you desire? What are the personal desires you have? What are the desires of your family? Are those desires informed by what Jesus' will has shown us God's will is? Or are they informed by kind of what you would prefer? Like we talked last week. We like to assign things that we like as God's God's doing this thing, and God's like, don't associate my name with that. That has nothing to do with me. Right? And and so we have to think clearly and discern: Am I praying for something that is that is something that's a God-given desire? Because I want you to know God will give you the desires of his heart. Scripture says that. But we need to ask for those desires, and part of asking for those desires starts to be in asking, God, would your will come? Would your will be done? Do it in my life, give me your desires. The other aspect of will to consider is agenda. What's your agenda? What are your motives? What are the motives you don't even see in your heart? The psalmist says, Search my heart, O God, see if there's any wicked way in me. The psalmist doesn't know what exactly his motives are in this situation. He thinks it's good, but Lord, search my heart, see if there be any wicked way in me. And we need to pray these prayers. This is why we pray every first Sunday of the month, this prayer of confession. To examine our hearts to say, Lord, am I living out your will? What are my desires? What is my agenda? Why am I doing the things I'm doing in life? Is this your will or is this mine? And so praying these prayers and examining our lives like that and asking God to speak into us, asking our community, our life groups to speak in. What do you see in this desire I have? that's scary. What what do you see in this prayer I'm praying? Is this a good prayer? And we will begin to be shaped in a way where our desires truly are God's desires. And our agendas truly are God's agendas. And as we pray, your will be done. We begin to be shaped by God's desires and God's agenda, not just for ourselves, but for humanity. one final word and concept that I want to give you here, and it's this this these ideas of heaven on earth. God Jesus teaches us to pray that God's kingdom would come and God's will would be done on earth, just like it is in heaven. And I'm using here and there, but don't get too fixated on that. You get what I'm saying. We are praying for something to happen on earth. I wanna just turn to the person next to you and say, We're praying for something to happen on earth. Not for us to escape to heaven. Turn to them and say, Not for us to escape to heaven. Our goal in the Christian life is not to do a good enough job and keep our head down so we can get to heaven. The kingdom of God is not some spiritually disembodied cloud city where I'm gonna sit and play a harp. The kingdom of God, Jesus says when he when he started his ministry, has come. But the the way that it's it's realized is is called, I'm gonna give you a really theological word. Can you just repeat it back to me? Say inaugurated eschatology. Here's what this means. It means the kingdom is completely here, but also it's so much it's still kind of coming into the room. my my my daughters have these ladybugs. They were they were got this like kit and it and it's like you grow them from from larva and you get the little kit and they survive somehow in the mail. And then you stick them in this little cage and you can like look at them through the little magnifying glass in there, and you try not to have them like knock it around or bump it too much, and you put a little water in there and there's a little bit of food, and they start growing and growing and growing. These are ladybugs. But they're also not ladybugs yet. They're there. But also there's more to be fully realized. You see what I'm saying? And so when we're asking God's kingdom to come and God's will to be done, we're saying, Lord Jesus, we know you said the kingdom is here, but also I want to see the ladybugs start flying around. And they're not doing that yet. Or Jesus' his favorite, one of his favorite examples was the kingdom of God's like a mustard seed. The whole thing is in that. You ever held a mustard seed? You go see it. They're so tiny. You like hold it and you like drop it. You can't even see it in your hand. But he said, this is like the smallest of the seeds. It goes unnoticed. That's often what God's kingdom is like. It goes unnoticed. That's why Jesus said, when you're with the least of these, when you care for the poor, the hungry, those in prison, those who need water, those who need clothing, you did it to me, he says. Because the kingdom of God operates in the unseen, in the marginal, in the hidden spaces. And it but he said that little seed starts to grow. And that whole mustard tree is in there. And he said it's the be the largest in the whole garden. Now, in reality, I was really disappointed the day I learned that a mustard tree is really like a big shrub. But but it the way they would grow their gardens, the kinds of things that would all be together in that place, the mustard shrub tree was the largest of all the things that would grow in that kind of a garden. That's his point. But he's saying, look, it's so tiny, but look at this impact. But it but it comes in like a seat. It takes a long time. It doesn't feel like it's coming. And so sometimes our prayers, folks, are us going, I know your kingdom's at hand, but also would you come? Would you do what you're supposed to fully do? Let me give you a picture of what it's supposed to fully look like. Revelation 21, verses 1 to 4. John says this: Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth. You hear the heaven and earth is there, except it's all new. For the first heaven and the first earth had passed away. And there was no longer any sea. Jewish people, by the way, were terrified of the ocean, and so no ocean and sea was really good for them. That means there's no chaos. That's what that means. It's predictable. There's no, you know, we live in a chaotic world. There's no more sea. And I saw the holy city, the New Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven. Did you hear that? What did I what direction did I say? I saw the holy city of Jerusalem go up to heaven. I saw the holy city of Jerusalem coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride, beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, Look, God's dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. This will be his people. And hear this, hear the kingdom language in this. God himself will be with them and be their God. The end of every earthly government, every earthly legislation, every policy and procedure wiped away because all of us are with God in the city. And it doesn't, it doesn't just end there. It's not just like we're gonna have a really nice, like chill place to live. It goes further. I love this. He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death. We've had some death visit our congregation this last year. And there will be no more death. Or mourning, or crying, or pain, for the old order of things has passed away. That's the vision of what we're praying for. We're praying that the kingdom that has started, that we're starting to see in bits, some of you have stories of being healed. That's God's kingdom come. Some of you have stories of miraculous financial provision or provision of cars or provision of places to live. That's a story of God's kingdom. Some of you have stories of just building friendships with someone who had need of food. Or needed a ride somewhere. Some of you have crazy stories of Jesus meeting people who were grieving and suddenly they found joy. These are signs of God's kingdom, markers that the whole thing is coming still into the room. And so when we pray, I want to recognize that we stand in this place of tension as the church. Stand in this place of tension where we see the vision of what's fully coming, but we recognize it's not fully realized. And we're no, we're not try we're not trying to get out of here and just escape to heaven. We're trying to stay here and say, God, you made this earth. You made this thing. Will you come? We want your rule and reign here. We want to live under your desires and agendas. God, will this shape our prayer, not just so we can go to heaven, but so you can come to earth. So all things can be made new, so that my neighborhood can be changed and brought into the new creation. So that the highlands can be in the new creation. We don't know exactly what all that's gonna look like. But we know there are gonna be wine there because Jesus said, I'm gonna drink wine with you in the in my father's kingdom. I'm just saying. I'm just saying. And so are we praying and standing in this in these places of tension? I just want you to see Jesus in this text. He's in this place of tension. He knows what his Father's will is. And he knows, actually, as many theologians have recognized, when he goes onto the cross, a lot of the language, especially in Matthew, Mark, and Luke, is actually describing an enthronement in the ancient world as he's going, the purple robe, the crown. But it's made out of thorns. And then he's raised up the language of the cross being lifted up after he's nailed to it. It's a it's an ascension and enthronement. And here is the God of the universe enthroned on a cross. This is what God's kingdom looks like. This is what God's will looks like: a complete giving of self for the sake of the world. And it's in the tension in the garden in the place of prayer that Jesus is being shaped and desiring God's Father's kingdom. And he's showing us what it looks like to stand in those places in our life where we're going to be called to give ourselves in some way for the sake of others, for the sake of God's kingdom coming. But it has to start in the place of prayer, in the tension between heaven and earth, saying, God, please do this work. We need it done. This is why I think it was Henry Nowen who who said, I I'm beginning to understand that much of praying is grief. And so if you go to prayer before the Lord and you find yourself praying like drops of blood flowing levels like Jesus did in the garden, you're in good company. And you're praying into God's kingdom and into God's will, and you're praying for it to come to earth as it is in heaven. When we begin to pray like Jesus, it means we're gonna often stand in those tensions. gonna mean that we're gonna look very weak often. But it is shaping us to look like God who is in the garden. Praying. That's all we could do. But here's what happens as we do this. Notice that the prayer is, your kingdom come. It's not just saying like I hope it comes. It's saying, come. Do you hear the difference? It'd be really nice if you came. Your kingdom come. Matthew 18, Jesus says it this way. Whatever you bind on earth will have been bound in heaven. Whatever you loose on earth will have been loosed in heaven. What is he saying? Whatever is my Father's will. Pray that it stops happening on earth. It'll be done. Whatever is my Father's will, pray that it gets released on the earth, in your neighborhoods, all over the place. It's already been done in heaven. And as we pray like this, watch as the Spirit begins to respond and do things in our midst we cannot explain. Watch as the Spirit begins to heal sicknesses. As we begin to see the Spirit respond to sin and broken relationships and forgiveness happens. Watch the Spirit come as we pray like this, and we see a lack of provision turned into abundance. Watch as we pray for the Spirit to come in these ways, and surprising friendships with the least of these in our community start to form. Watch as we pray in this place of tension. And what has appeared in the seed form will start to emerge and flourish. May we learn how to pray like Jesus, asking for the Father's kingdom, longing for his will, and aching to see his new world on earth as is. Would you stand with me? We're going to pray the Lord's Prayer together as we prepare to take communion. I just I don't know if do we have it on the screen this week? The Lord's Prayer? Yeah. And I I'd love for us to to pray this prayer together. Do you guys need a sec? Give our production team a big hand. Sorry. I I put on the spot going, Hey, Lord's Prayer Do you guys want me to just go without you? Okay. I take it back. You're not going to read it on the screen. It'll be there next week. But I want us to pray this prayer. Do this. Everyone's gonna have a different translation, but it's okay. Look at Matthew chapter five. Or excuse me, Matthew chapter six. Verse nine. I'll be reading it in the NIV translation. And let's pray this together and allow the prayer of Jesus to continue to shape what kingdoms we're seeking. What we're desiring for And what we're aching for in the world. Let's pray this together. Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name, your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us today our daily bread, and forgive us our debts as we also have forgiven our debtors, and lead us not into temptation. But deliver us from the evil one. And pray this with me. For yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever and ever. Amen. Amen. If the team could come forward, we're going to prepare to take communion together. As we come to take the body and the blood of our Lord Jesus at the table, here's what I want to ask of you. I want to ask if you as you come, that you would take a moment, just as our as we've been reflecting and pausing and confessing sin this morning, and as you come to the table, would you just take a moment to recognize the kingdoms, the wills, the desires, the agendas that you have been praying for that don't look like the fathers.