Sue: My dad was a Mason for part of his life. I don't know how long. His dad was also a Mason, the top head of the lodge, top brother of the lodge, as was his wife, the head of the Eastern Star Women's Auxiliary. My late husband, who was Welsh, his dad was also a Mason. And at one point, shortly after my late husband was a don't know, young adult, he rolled a vehicle that had his then girlfriend in it. 'cause they had been drinking cider. And as things were, they both survived, I think with quite minimal physical problems. And because of his dad's rank and society, Dad and Mom were headmasters, school principals to us in the United States, known to everybody in a small village in Wales, he was able to keep that accident quiet. And and Garrett were told the story that they were keen to invite Gareth to join, and he chose not to. He realized that his dad was then beholden to that community that helped keep that accident minimized in terms of publicity. I don't know that it was really scandalous, but I think, you know, at the time it may have been given the, you know, seventies or ten ten on the clock. And he went on to talk about that that kind of kinship amongst the family. friendship group such as that was something that meant that you were bound to that group, confirmation with a blue jay, to repay that moral debt that you took under oath to join that group. They were really after him on so many levels to join and he still resisted. I mentioned this today because my grandfather had a daughter, she got herself pregnant. It was about three years before I was born. I know nothing about this ten ten I'm another slower clock. I know nothing of the inward workings of such societies other than the observant account of my late husband in Wales, and all that being said, there may have been a debt to be paid by my grandfather's grandchild's life, in the form of impositions on their ability to climb up the pyramid of the hierarchy of needs to succeed in life. In other words, Will have jobs, but they just won't have the jobs that are better suited for their abilities and you have to take less than. Maybe relationships don't succeed. Given the nature of a child being born out of wedlock in the day, my aunt went away for a period of time. At which point that baby was born and adopted out. And she returned home. That sort of moral debt that that society would take on needs to be repaid. And energetically and spiritually it could likely be such that it's contained in a script, a ritual, a book that the society maintains as a ledger, that when people get to certain levels of their accomplishment in the hierarchy of that organization, encounter those rituals, prey on them, whatever it is that they do. You know, this is all to further the honor of humanity in their minds. They don't might not know precisely. who these ritual targets are. So, you know, there's you know, they only work there, kind of vibe. And spiritually that might well be something that when I look at my life and my inability, perceived inability, to overcome some struggles easily, given that I'm easily d able to overcome other areas of my life, well, there may be an energetic connection, a tie. I've now trained myself a new pattern of being spontaneous and improvising in every aspect of my life. These are mindsets that we allow ourselves to just get through our days as happy as we possibly can and not adjust them frequently because after all, you get comfy where you like in your head, don't don't you? You have every right to one of that. Problem is the universe is multifractually expanding all around you and all of a sudden you're gonna realize you have less and less space that you're occupying. So in some ways, you can view that as a lack mentality, unless you exercise your tools to be creative in some way. I don't necessarily mean arts and crafts. Could be, and you know, there's nothing wrong with that. Certainly not about attending a secret group on a Wednesday night meeting and pulling out the old ritual book and getting it done with honor and valor, with the right words and emotions, because you might actually be hurting people that you aren't aware of. I mean this is the thing. It comes down to the simplest of concepts. Whatever you do, do you want to get that in return? Because that's how the energy works. You can't fight that. People sometimes go off into tangents with witchcraft and things, and I'm not I'm not railing on that. What I'm bringing up is the concept of things called monitoring spirits. Monitoring spirits are waves of energy, I believe. This is my opinion, this is my blog. They're waves of energy that like Anybody who is an empath of certain s skill and tool set can sense. It's it's not limited to walls and territories. It's it's throughout the universe. And what happens is in witchcraft, they will believe flying insects that start invading your house are a sign that you have monitoring spirits. And it's and it's correct because those flying insects are riding on that energetic wave as a means of pre- propulsion to make their movements more efficient, but they're a sign that the waves are present around you, but they are not in fact carrying the wave as a creation from a ritual that says, you know, give me a fly that that can tell me what's going on over there. Right? They are simply attracted to, in their own biochemistry, whatever it is that makes flies flies, that particular energy. And it's just an indicator as someone who understands science that yeah, there are mon there are energies around me that are keeping an eye on me. And then you begin to understand the futility of asking the question why? Because you could here in the universe you could have a multi fractal amount of answers to that question, you never get anything done. So with the interest of efficiency, you look at this sign, take it for what it is, don't feel paranoid because everybody's watching you. Because after all, you're controlling yourself nonetheless. And if they go through their script, as they do on Wednesday nights, Probably have cake and wine at the end. You know, make it really social. I'm sure some of the people in that group probably are excellent bakers, and there's probably somebody that knows a thing or two about a nice bottle of wine to pair with it, right? I know as a musician you can't get people to attend a concert unless you promise them food. Just saying. In the interest of getting people to come out on a Wednesday night on a regular basis, 'cause you know, you gotta keep those ritual energies vibing. You gotta keep dosing them. with the group, the collective. They come out, they do their thing, they've got the energies going out to keep an eye on what's going on. Could be a corrupt telepath in the group that's able to remote view in a way that gives them the the deets on what my movements are. I know that for a fact. In my truth, which is my fiction to you. Now we're at a place where they know now that none of the stuff that they have been trained to do in the ritual is working on me. And it's not working on me for the simple fact that I'm improvising my response. And that's what I encourage everybody to try and train themselves to do. You're creating a new pattern but of improvisation, meaning each and every time that you feel off, you have a different response to getting back to your tick over joy and happiness. And that within that repertoire of responses You vary that. So pick something that's like making a a nice cup of tea for yourself. Make sure you have plenty of different types of tea that you enjoy drinking. Maybe even in the ritual that you prepare it, you vary it slightly. The time at which you etcetera you get the the gist here. You've got enough resources now at your f physical hand in your life that you can switch it up that each and every time you feel off you do something different because that prevents the rituals from landing. And the rituals are intended to give you energetic projections that make you feel doubting of yourself, not being able to succeed, make you turn in on yourself in such a way that you don't see any other way than to eliminate yourself. Why would you do that? These are those yes no decisions. Because all along you're keeping track of logic. You're saying to yourself, Yeah, this group seems like, hey, these group this group is going place. Honey, we have come up in the world where we've been invited to enjoy these proper people. Look, we've got XY and Gold Blitz over here wearing somebody's got a lot of brocade they're wearing. They must be successful. We're honey, we're in we're rubbing elbows with all of the hoi poloi. Goodness gracious. And all we have to do, aside from getting our rituals in place and the rites of passage and stuff, is to make sure we set aside our Or Wednesday nights, you know. We always did that as kids though, right? In the world that I grew up, of Catholic and non Catholic, thank you, Senator Sister Henry, Wednesday night was the night. Because Thursday night was choir practice, right? And I believe the Catholics had like catechism or something in those days. I don't know. I'm non Catholic. Help me out. But Wednesday night was the night that it was often a Bible class, something that was a weekly event at your house of worship. And even the school schedules and stuff were sort of built around it in terms of their s after school activities. A very large indoctrination as a child. So you as an adult, you're you're ready to do something in service to others. Wednesday night has always been the night that you mindset wise have chosen to do it, so here we are, right? I up on a YouTube video where that was pointed out and in relation to my own life, given the connections of my paternal line kind of falls into place. Now, as I say, it's fic it's my truth, but it's your fiction. So knowing that, that we all have balance with that, that we don't go nutty about it, or nudy, depending on where you're from. We have the awareness that the things that we feel that don't make sense emotionally or seem out of place to what else is going on in your life are things that need to be addressed and responded to, because they have distant impacts. Potentially. Because everything is your decision, right? You can choose to accept the fact that you're always gonna live in poverty. It doesn't mean that it's just, all of a sudden I think I'm rich and money's gonna come pouring in. There's a there's a lot of work to make that happen. And if everybody's changing the rules about how that stuff is gonna materialize, you're gonna be really busy to make that happen. And it's a good thing, right? Because you have a purpose. I should say that committing your life to making money is not how I view and value the purpose of my life. I need to earn a living. Everybody needs money to survive in this physical realm. Well, you get to a place where you accept the way that you feel as just part of the environment that is your life at that moment. That's what I had happen. And it gets to a place continually that everything is just falling short. Of where you had intended the vision to place itself in your life. And recognize that because you chose to approach it with the experience, the nuanced mindset that you've accumulated with the experience you've had in your life, to approach it the same way that you always did. And of course that's not gonna work. Because we've also taught that we're not normally should be just re- going by the seat of our pants. We should have a plan. I d I don't I don't attend meetings on Wednesday night. I didn't I didn't know there was a script. was meant to follow. And now you get in to the darker nature of whatever that particular group within the group has manifested, which is a weird game of being able to energetically control people without their knowledge as if they were chess pieces. People have lives. They think they're making the autonomous decisions. And they are, but they didn't get the job because so and so, you know, you didn't pass the the l the final cut of candidates, or whatever the circumstances are. Real world things that people will. Understandably take on as the legit reason why things happen, but there's always that layer behind it, which is the originating place for the projection, which is to say, according to our book, we get to do this to you because we're still paying off that debt that your grandpa created with us. You do what we say. And as far as you know, you're making all the decisions that we're available to make to you. Of course you're gonna make them in the best of your possibility. You don't wanna self self sabotage, you certainly don't wanna self eliminate. And until you start improvising and creating new responses to everything that you did before that you know how to do so well, you will continue repeating and staying on the same cycle of your mindset. You will be effectively imprisoned. I mean, I realize it's kinda nice not having to worry about the rest of the world, but I don't really voluntarily wish to imprison myself any longer. So now we go back to the lodge, which I've been talking about of recent times. The ones who were dutifully and honorably, in their mindset, in this esteemed organization, carrying out the regular Wednesday night rituals. And keep in mind, they're also following lunar cycles. Because you know, you're hedging your bets. If you really want to give something an extra jolt of energy, you're gonna do it on a full moon cycle, right? Just saying. It's one of many tactics that are in place. So now the people that have been involved and trusted to carry out this decades long as far as they've known. Because you know, this has happened before a f few years before I was born and I'm sixty-five. So let's say all of this has been going on my entire lifetime. Well, I'm not even considering ancestors who may have generational curses still in effect. But real world, we'll just talk about my physical lifetime. So now you have this group of people who now realized that all of that time is not going to give them the prosperous payout that they were anticipating receiving once they attained a certain level in this organization. Empathetically, I'd be questioning wh where it was that I missed that most important yes-no decision those many years ago. Why did I make the decision I did to do that? And to find out information that makes things even more challenging for their lives is at a soul level. In addition to whatever materialistically can be impacted financially, in the physical realm, could be all sorts of things is in the real world, couldn't it? Could be physical health, it could be financial, it could be jobs in my case, could be work disappearing at their end. I'm totally empathetic. I went through a period of destitution and it could happen again. Mm it's not just me. A group did not think before they left. You have to be able to discern and trust your intuition and improvise, whatever way it is, your creative energy has to be able to flow within you enough to know when something is a good decision for you or not a good decision for you. Is it healthy? To be engaging in this substance all the time. Is it healthy to be hanging out with a group of people without question all the time? It's not healthy to play a victim, that's for sure. It's not healthy to be in a lack mentality. I absolutely don't want to do that. Because I've got hair in my lungs. That's already hope. I hope I continue to make the best yes, no decisions for my life. now and going forward because I'm in control of making the moves. I don't know what those moves are gonna be. I'm gonna be in control of making them and fully present and aware and understanding that I don't need to have all the answers of whether that was a why or how or when that happens, but that i is the best decision for me. And that includes thinking of others. Because logically, you want good things coming to you, don't ya? So the only way to get the good things is to be good and send it out. People with a capital P, that's all that it is. Don't pity. Don't put any energy into people that aren't giving you an equal return on what you put out. And don't be fooled by the fact that when somebody seems to be doing you a good thing, that you just turn off the yes no decision maker part of you and just accept it and go forward, either. That's where your discernment of your intuition is. Well you have to be aware. Who's telling you it's the best decision for you? It's none of their business. Really? It's not their life to control. You're the one that has to control it. And I'll tell you what, it feels like sometimes you're on a high wire. I feel like I'm Philip Petit, traversing the World Trade Center towers back in the day. You gotta be nuts. But that's how it feels sometimes. And yet gotta live your life and just trust yourself to make the right move and think about it. What am I doing to ensure That I receive what I deserve. I gotta be good. And that's not at the expense of controlling somebody else. Really? You take it from other people without their knowledge? That's theft. That's spiritual trespassing. That's a moral no no on any platform that tells you that you're adding value and honor to humanity. Humanity doesn't trespass on one another. And yet they do, don't get me wrong. I'm I do read the news. But when I'm able to control what I do, that's all that matters. So be spontaneous. Really mix it up. Create the pattern of improvisation and be frequent enough with the manner in which it's employed in your life that, yeah, you might fall into a pattern, but you're going to be aware enough to have a a large enough repertoire of responses to make certain that each and every time you don't ignore feeling off and that you do your best. To replace it with something that gives you happiness and joy in your life and then move on. Don't give it any more energy. Don't feed it. That's my advice. If you want to take it as advice, thank you for listening. It's only esoteric from the standpoint that we were all told to not talk about it in some way in our lives. Well, we got YouTube now, don't we? Thanks for sharing your energy with me today. I appreciate you.